The Results Again

    Today was work’s Christmas party. It went pretty well, there was an abundance of food, and not many people had seconds so there is a truck load of it left over. So at least the next few nights I will have food at work! The owner’s wife mad Samosas and they were soooooooooooooooo good. I put the left overs in a bag and kept them for myself, haha. One of the desk clerks didn’t show for the party and wouldn’t answer her phone. I hope nothing happened or that she decided to quit us. I am a little nervous because she’s who relieves me tonight at 11, so I hope she at least shows up for work. We really can’t afford to have her quit on us now with me leaving in like 5 days. Uhg, I really don’t need the stress right now. I just want to get on a plane and start my adventure and leave this job behind for a week, lol. But I am not gunna stress about it now until 11 pm gets here I guess. Maybe she had something come up, I dunno.

    I called the doctors office yesterday to see what the results would be. Really thinking and hoping they’d turn out fine and that maybe something just went amiss with the papsmear….But no, it turned up the same results the pap’s test did. Soooooooo this means either he watches it and see if it goes away on it’s own, or we have to look into freezing it or cutting it out. Neither sound ultimately pleasant, but there’s nothng I can do before my trip. So it will have to wait. Also, there’s no use removing it before the trip because then Frank can just give it right back to me, lol. I haven’t even told him about the latest results. Maybe on the trip or something, but I don’t want him to worry because he will. I am not happy about the news but there is really nothing I can do right now ya know? I mean I want it out of me right away. I don’t like knowing there are "abnormal cell clusters" in there….But if we have to do some sort of medical procedure to remove it, then I have to just wait until I can save up enough money to get it done. I have no insruance or anything.  To top it off my foot isn’t healing very quickly, and something feels wrong with it, but I can’t see a doctor because of the lack of funds. I barely have a 100 bucks for my trip to Europe. And after I get gas and pay for parking at the airport, well, there just wont be much. =/ I’m a little discouraged, but I am just so estatic to be seeing Frank so soon.

    What’s even better is all the excitement HE’S showing. He’s normally so calm and reserved and doesn’t show too much excitement you know? But like he came home last night and told me he’d never been on a vacation before. But I was like, that’s not true, you’ve gone all kinds of places with your dad. But it turns out he’s never been on a vacation with a GIRLfriend before. So, yeah I was like Awwwww….he says stuff like that and my heart just wants to explode. Just when you think you can’t love some one more you know? They do or say something to change that. It’s such a powerful feeling, a scary feeling, but it feels good too. I also had him open his presents from me because  I just couldn’t stand waiting anymore, ha ha. And he LOVED it. I was so happy. He called me before he started opening them because he wanted to talk to me while doing it, since I couldn’t be there. I heard him tearing through the paper like a kid and he’s like, "Oh wow!!! this is a NICE gift!!!"….And kept going on about it.  Then he says…"I wish you were here, I wan’t to kiss you."   Lol…I thought I was going to turn into a puddle right there. I know it’s so annoyingly sappy to be writing about all of it, but I can’t help bragging about it you know? It’s like this one awesome thing in my life, I dunno…the feelings have become so overwelming you know? That i’ll just burst if I don’t let some of them out.

    I just found out from my mom that I recieved at package today from some one else special!!! Kitty!!! So now I have to go the next six hours before I can go home and open it! Haha. It’s gunna drive me insane waiting, Grrrr. But I must confess, I am a Christmas whore and there is no way I can wait until Christmas to open it, haha. The temptation is just too much for me to handle. LOL. But she prolly wont wait until Xmas to open her package I sent  either, lol, so I don’t feel so bad.

    Anyway, I am annoyingly excited about my trip, lol. It’s all I talk, think, and dream about. I am sure people are just ready for me to get the hell out of here already, ha ha. Sorry people. =/  Anyway, I am gunna go heat up those samosas and have some dinner. =)