It’s True What He Calls Me:

Princess!!!!!   

–Lol. So he booked our hotel last night. We spent like…oh my god, HOURS online looking for the perfect hotel for the perfect rate. Nothing was good enough for him. I didn’t realize he was such high maitenence, lol. Either that or really wants to impress me, I am not sure. But FINALLY…after hours of deliberation he picked  a place. I was away from the computer helping a customer, the phone rings and it’s him. (Which was weird for me because we were talking online, lol) Asked me if I got my passport squared away. "Frank, I told you yesterday I took care of it. It should be here in a couple weeks. Even paid extra to get it faster."   He goes, "Good!! Coz Baby on the 28th’ we’ll be checking into the Crown Plaza Hotel in Prague!!" Haha, 900 bucks for like, 5? Nights in Prague. Already paid for of course because he did it online.

So now we’re just waiting for his NEXT paycheck to book the plane tickets. He was so hesitant too about Prague. Because of the weather. Buuuuuut this morning when I wake up I had like, a gazillion messages from him saying now he’s sure he’s made the right choice for a vacation for us, and sent me a whole bunch of links of Prague. Overveiws, from roofs and such. The tops of all the old medievial buildings blanketed in snow. The sky even looks dreary but it has this, quaint, old, rustic, romantic appeal about it. Just looking at the pictures got me all excited and breathless. Today, we spent looking up sites dedicated to Czech language, and menus and stuff.  It’s so cute how he’s all excited about paying for it. Like , it’s usually me who pays for stuff. Because I have the job and the credit cards, and he was a student who didn’t work. It wasn’t assumed I’d pay…when he had some cash he’d put it on the table or something. But now he has a crazy good paying job and I think this is his way of "wowing" me and making up for all the money I’ve invested in our visits with eachother. But, he could spoil me with trips to Europe, haha.

The Object of my affection^^^

I have this to look forward to. I am so, so, SO excited. And then with Christmas coming up, and Thanksgiving. The holidays all come up faster than we realize or have time for. So I know the time will just fly.  I mean Christmas is in like what, 8 weeks? Something like that. CRAZY. I hate to brag, (well….not really, lol)…but I do hate to be so cheesy about all this. But rarely does anything so exciting happen to me. It will be hard to focus on other things, that’s for sure.

–The hotel still has a …..chimney smell. I find it hard to breath. My throat and nose are burning, but what can you do?  Then tonight an room with an older TV began to smoke, and the customer unplugged it before it also broke into flames, lol. Gawd…I can just see me having to evacuate 50 rooms. I am just glad the customer was in there to catch it, and not out having dinner with the TV being left on. Who knows how much damage would have been caused by not catching it in enough time. Ish called and I told him he might wanna take out a bigger insurance policy by the end of this week, haha Because it’s obvious some one has cursed this hotel to flames!!! He laughed but I bet he does!!!   I keep telling him to replace ALL the tvs, and keep the old ones as spares. (This isn’t the first TV to catch on fire here. There have been two others.) But he’s quick to say I am just trying to spend all his money. But the TV’s are all the same age, so they’re all going to start going out, one right after the other. It’s like batteries in the smoke alarms here. When one smoke alarm goes off because of dead batteries, soon to follow over the course of a few days the other ones start to go off too. But hey, what do I know right?

–My mom is acting very funny about my trip. I wasn’t TOO sure on what her problem was. For example, whenever I try to bring it up, she cuts me off, or acts like she didn’t hear what I said. Or like last night I tried to show her what the hotel would look like and she got up and said she was tired and had to go to bed. So I have been feeling really brushed off you know? So she works here at the motel one day a week, and we’ve both gotten to be pretty good friends with Debbie, (a house keeper) and I mentioned to her how my mom had been acting. And she got kind of quiet and said, "well she’s just upset because you’re leaving in less than a year…" and then caught herself revealing my mom’s "secret" lol and started talking about something else.

 So I have come to the conclusion my mom is neither jealous about my going to Europe or it being so far away like I thought she was, but instead this just reinforces how much of my own life I am developing. I think it’s dawning on her that I am growing up and begining to live my own life you know? Seperate from hers. I’ve been hers for a very long time, and I just don’t think she’s gotten used to, sharing me with some one I consider almost as important as her you know? Like her and Frank are equal loves in my life, but in different ways. She’s been really moody and snappy lately. And now that I realize the truth I feel bad for her. I don’t want her to feel like she is going to become any less important in my life. We’re very close and I know I need her daily. Even if it’s just for a phone call. But I realize that this trip just reinforces how seperate of a person I am becoming. She wants to give me my wings but at the same time keep me to herself. Truthfully I wouldn’t mind both, lol. I think maybe tomorrow I will bring the topic up to her, and hopefully reassure her some. She might drive me up the wall sometimes, but she is still my mother, and my best-ist friend. But the idea of leaving her here and moving does scare me. Even makes me want to cry and I am not even gone yet.