OD: The Saturday Night Date

Well, the day DID get better after my shower. The washing away of my frustration was nice. I stood under the water for what seemed like a long time and just soaked it all in. The hot water as it turned my skin red, the steam that opened my poors and my lungs and I just closed my eyes. Its much better then counting to ten, thats for sure.  Its so relaxing. I thought about Frank and how bad I felt for getting so frustrated with him when he was trying to help me earlier. Granted I know he knew I was testy already and he was just trying to be funny. He kept using termonology he KNEW I wouldn’t know but expected me to figure out. But I was so upset and frustrated that I didn’t want to think about it, I wanted him to just walk me through it! Lol, jesus, you’d think he’d realize that. But alas, he is only but a mere guy. And sometimes guys are clueless.

But I think he felt bad because after my shower he became really loving and sweet, and omg told me he missed me AND he loved me. I was so shocked and happy. Its so rare that he says those things. Its not that he doesn’t feel that way for me, he’s just not used to sharing his feelings. He’s good at showing them, though. Like if we’re watching a movie he doesn’t like it if I am sitting somewhere else than beside him or cuddled up to him, he touches me when we talk. Like my arm or my thigh, just a simple gesture. I couldn’t get all mushy when he told me he missed and loved me, he gets all squirmy, haha. So I will just have to get mushy in here. I love my five minute windows where he lets me inside of him for a while. Its such a great feeling. I’ve had butterflies and a smile on my face for the rest of the day. He said he couldn’t understand why my friends have treated me so badly, because Im so loveable and cute. Haha. I think he feels bad about my recent turn of events and feels bad that he’s so far away and can’t fix things for me like he wants to.

I really wish I could have gone dancing too. Especially since my mood picked up! I really feel like getting dressed up and shakin’ some booty. But I don’t want to go alone. At work today mom said Jessica felt bad that we couldn’t go tonight, she really wanted to see this Miguel guy, haha. She wanted to punch him in his face if he came within ten feet of me! I’ve known her a week and she’s already protective, lol. We talked about going next Saturday when I get off work, so I guess we’ll see! She really is a fun and spunky girl. I think we’d have a good time.

Tonight mom and I treated ourselves to the movies and some popcorn, mmmm. We saw Failure to Launch, which was actually a cute, funny movie. It was a predictable ending of course but it had a lot of funny scenes none the less. I actually laughed almost all the way through the movie. They haven’t made funny movies like that in a while.  I was in a romantic mood too, so it was over all enjoyable. I couldn’t go dancing so at least I got out of the house! Ha.

School starts back up on Monday and I am back to the same ‘ol school and work routine again. But only for 6 weeks so there isn’t much left to go. I still haven’t decided if I want to take summer classes. I kind of want to wait and see what Frank and I plan for the summer before I know what I can do. But I get to sign up for fall classes in April, hopefully I can take some really interesting behavior psych. classes. I am so tired of these boring, mandatory, high school style courses I have to take before I can get to the good stuff! I also need to declare my major. Maybe I will make that a task to have done before the semester ends. There’s really no rush right this second. I am exciting about taking the criminal justice classes. I really love law AND psych. It was hard to pick a major between the two. I can’t wait to be a profiler someday! Get inside the minds of the intelligent, creepy, serial killers and putting MORE like them behind bars.

Speaking of which, cold case files is now on on court tv so I am gunna go get in bed and watch it! Makes for interesting dreams….if only I could remember them. I think last night I dreamed of Frank’s graduation next year, and I was running down this huge hill into his arms…I woke up at the point. I don’t remember what happened before it though. So I wonder what it means…HMMMMMMMM