LOVE
Just sold my last room so now I have 4 hours of nothingness…well it should be home work…it probably WILL be homework, after I finish this diary entry, lol. Ahhhhhhhhh I love procrastination….
I WANT CHOCOLATE DAMNIT…this stupid diet sucks…lol
Anyway, moving on. I don’t really have anything to talk about. Nothing exciting or new is going on with me. I don’t even have an interesting story to share. I have more news about Rachel, but then it just grates at me. I don’t understand WHY guys make girls so damn stupid. I honestly don’t get it. She confesses she’s tired of talking to him, that she justs wants to get off the phone, and when she wants to go out she has to lie to him and say she’s really going to bed, but then he’ll text her a million and one times. OR if she goes out and he knows, he wont leave her alone. And she lets him. He throws fits too. DUMP HIM DUMP HIM DUMP HIM. Why be so desperate to put up with that shit? Where he calls every number he can just to get ahold of you, AND calls your sister by the name of the girl he cheated on you with….HELLO. DUMP HIM. Here’s what I really want to tell her…
Rachel: STOP being so stupid and immature about this. If you knew ONE freaking thing about love, you’d know you don’t love HIM. You flirt with another guy, you’ve kissed him, you hang out with him all the time. You can’t leave the house without your boyfriend tracking your every move. You can’t even hang out with me more than 20 minutes or he’s calling or texting or SOMETHING. He CHEATED on you. You lie just so you can go out….DON’T YOU SEE SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE? Stop settling..being to terrified of being alone you’ll put up with this shit just so you can say you have a boyfriend. If what you REALLY want is to become some one’s couch, lose your identity and independance and dignity, then good job. You’re WELL on your way. He’s a spoiled rotten little ass, and if I was the one in this situation, you’d think I was stupid too for sticking around. So why do you?
But of course I can’t say that, because she’s my friend and it would hurt her. But i am getting to the point of I don’t care. Dont sit there and complain about how horrible your relationship is if you’re NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. GROW UP! right? right? I have lost ALL my sympathy for her situation. And I know that sounds bad, but she’s turning into all the girls we said were stupid before and she doesn’t even care. All of our friends just dropped us because their bf’s were so possesive and they were so desperate not to be alone they let it happen. It annoys the hell out of me. And I hope , pray and WISH, if my relationship with Frank ever turned into this, that some one would seriously hit me upside the head and tell me to grow up, and I hope, and pray, and WISH I am smart enough to listen.
No one should ever settle for love. No one should ever give up who they are just so they don’t have to be alone. How can some one ever possibly be truely happy if they don’t know how to find happiness alone and within themselves. And a REAL man would have no respect for their girlfriend or wife if those ladies just gave up their identities to be what the man wants them to be. And a REAL woman, wouldn’t give up who she is just to keep a man around. I wish my friends would realize this. But two of them are already bound by vows….but Rachel isn’t yet..and I wish she’d realize the mistake she’s about to make by staying with Steve. She’s going to lose herself, and her friends, and her dreams…just because he wants her to. Because she doesn’t want to be single. But love is only love when there are TWO seperate people who want to be with eachother for who they are. Love is accepting eachothers identities and cherishing they differences they have and letting each person be their own person….and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it just rubs me the wrong way this situation does! Makes me wanna punch a wall.
How pathetic, I need to write about some one else’s life and problems because I don’t have any of my own haha. Someday….someday….Im gunna go do some homework I guess.