Friday Nights Back At Work

Well, I guess this means I am back to the same old routine, just new days. Work, school, some sleep, WORK, SCHOOL, LITTLE SLEEP…lol Friday nights working, Saturday nights working, agan no social life …..at least during the break I had a little bit of one. So no one can take my memories!

School is going okay, I am already getting a lot of homework, I tried working on it tonight a little but every time I sit down some one comes in or the phone rings, and I must admit my butt and thighs are getting a little sore from all of the up and down action. HA, think they’d be used to it after last week! (I know I know…no one wanted the mental….too bad, I did…lol) However in class all I seem to think about is Frank and I go over each and every day, reliving them. I so miss sleeping next to him, and how sometimes we’d find our own side of the bed, but some where during the middle of the night his arms would come searching for me, then he’d wrap them around me, and I could sleep happier, safer…warmer. Needless to say I haven’t heard much of what my professors have had to say this week. But I can’t help it, I know in a while it wont be this bad, but it doesn’t feel like it’s going to get that way. I can’t seem to focus!

He really loves his blanket. When he logged on today, he told me he was all wrapped up in it. AND, he even wants to take it to England, to sleep with in his dorm. All the hard work definately paid off, I am so glad he loves it. He got me the perfect present, like this HUGE chocolate kiss, lol. I can see the trans fat and acne all over it, haha. But it has a cute teddy bear holding it….I guess after four years some people would wonder why I didn’t get anything more…since I had some one ask me that…but I know..he doesn’t have a job, so there’s no constant income of money, so he’s usually poor. And I wouldn’t tell him what to get me, because I told him to think about me, and something would come to mind. Since I LOVE chocolate, and he always teases me about it, it seemed like the perfect gift. He wanted to get me Godiva chocolates, but jesus, 100 bucks for like 3 pieces, lol. I’d shoot him if he spent that much money on chocolate! I told him that during the process of making his blanket, I lost several strands of my hair to it..(my hair is really long) and it would get caught in the needle or the thread and pull itself into the blanket..lol….I’d try and pull it out but it was usually woven in there too tight. He thinks its poetic..lol..then said he put his hair in the chocolate, haha. Ahhh I can’t get him OUT of my head!!!

Samantha, the young girl from work I have become friends with has decided to move back home to North Carolina. She has met a guy through some one else, and all they’ve done is spoken on the phone. But she’s ready to just drop everything and move there because of him. Leaving her mom, and family, and friends here behind. But she’s the type that cannot be without a boyfriend. And she falls "in love" with every one she has, (and trust me, there’s been a lot)…and it makes me sad, because she’s such a sweet girl, but she has such immature qualities, and she’s going to have to pay some hard lessons in life. I hate to see it, I feel like if she would stay here, I could some how guide her. Since being here she has become a little more responsible with her money and bills and such. For the first time she had her own apartment. Im not saying I taught her all of that, but I think my anal-ness with responsibility definately rubbed off on her. And she’s going to throw it all away and move back to the life she was trying to leave behind. But maybe it is just as well, Lee has half a mind to fire Sam, but it’s because of me she’s kept her job. She’s not the right material for this job, but she needs the money and stability, so I thought maybe she could learn to grow up. But she’s been getting a lot of complaints from the customers about her rudeness, and stuff…I dunno, I just see how she’s going to wind up some day if she doesn’t change her ways,  hopefully she will and prove me wrong…because underneath the selfishness/childlike qualities, she also can have a big heart..guess the best thing a friend can do is wish her nothing but luck and happiness wherever she goes.

Because OD doesnt let you make your comments as long as you want:

For Kitty–>  I think Love will find you. You’re such a beautiful person inside and out, a great friend and listener and you pay attention to every detail, and you have so much love and kindness and friendship to offer a person.  One day the right guy will be looking for that too…and you’ll bump into eachother…on a yahoo pool game like me, or maybe at the grocery store late at night when you have a craving for icecream…who knows. But the kind of love you’re looking, searching and yearning for is out there and still in you. Because your trust and heart was broken by that fool, it will take time to give it all to another person, whoever it may be. But true, honest, and mature love develops over time. Not over night…so many people confuse passion and intimacy with love, but to have love you must have trust, honesty, friendship, communication, disagreements, space…everything..every quality you both possess will join together over time, and all those things you had with M and cherished will be yours again. But don’t think for one second you wont be able to feel that way or find such a thing again, because you will. Just when you least expect it. And when it happens you’ll know, I promise…the fluttery feeling wont go away or simmer down after a month or something. I guess what I am saying is Love is searching for you …and it WILL find you, and give you everything you’re wishing for ….