Fate

Writing on this week’s theme….

Well, do I believe in Fate? I guess that means do I believe I am living a predestined life? Does everything that I go through, live through, think and feel, happen for some reason only known by some higher power than myself?

My answer? I don’t know. To be honest, its hard to write things off in my (one’s) life as not being destiny/fate. But then at the same time, I think descions we make, actions we partake in, help in creating the fate/or destiny that we encounter. I guess one could argue fate made me go through things in order for things to end up the way they do.  For example, had I not gotten a newer computer 3 1/2 years ago, and decided to play yahoo pool, happened to play with a very nice guy from Chicago named Tommy, who I happened to start liking, who then happend to be playing yahoo pool one day with Frank when I wasn’t on…then one day I was on and he invited me to the game, and I met Frank…wham, the greatest love. It sounds like these chain of events catapaulted off of eachother and the end result was finding the love of my life. But is that fate or coinicidence? I very well could have gone into the game alone and met him, or met him some day when I moved to NYC…I guess the real test of fate would be to start life all over again, and see if we still met one another. Maybe not by yahoo pool but by another means.

I think if anything life is full of coincidences, and I think they happen along the way of whatever path you’re taking. There are so many options out there to choose from, that one option leads to another that branches off to another that leafs into something else.  I think fate is dangerous. Fate means no matter what, THIS is going to happen, and you have no control over if it does or not. I like having control over myself, and what happens, and what choices I make. And if my CHOICE to play pool that day resulted in meeting Frank, thats awesome. But I think theres a strong chance had I not been in the mood to play I would have never met him. Granted this is the easiest example of fate, because what is more intriguing then meeting the "match" of your life?

I guess through writing this, my belief in fate is null.  I believe in things happening because of something I happened to do. Had I not been patient, like my other friends who jumped into bed and matrimony with the first guy they laid eyes on, I may not have known what I was looking for, or found him. If that makes any sense. I hear it in my head, but I feel like I am typing in circles. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so Ima shut up and leave you with your thoughts, and probably disagreements….