spending time, not money….

Ahhhhhh here I sit at work, AGAIN.  I do believe each diary entry starts off that way, how redundant. But anyway, it is semi slow for a Monday. Then again it is winter which means less travel, and the gas prices have gone up AGAIN, which means even less travel.  Thus, I get paid to sit on my ass and look pretty. I am such a good worker 😉 lol

Anyway, I must thank Kitten for keeping me company so often at work! If it wasn’t for her I’d be doing my homework or something, haha. Tsk tsk on us.

Its almost Christmas and I have sone like ZERO to no shopping for anyone. I have three small presents for my mom and I am still working on Frank’s. I hope he likes it! Coz I am busting my butt on it, especially to get it done in time so its ready to open when he gets here! I think he’ll like it though, I’ve put a lot of thought into it, and he appreciates that. If I had all kinds of money to blow I’d like to get him a new laptop, because he wants one so bad. But they’re expensive and it would probably make him a bit uncomfy if I spent that kind of money on him. So maybe for this birthday!

On another note, I was searching through Myspace’s vast amount of networks and found a friend from back home I haven’t talked to in over a year. I’ve known her since she was born, we practically grew up sisters and her mom is like my mom too. She doesn’t even get onto computers, but a friend made her an account the same day I was searching for her, just to see if she was on there. It was like fate that I found her. We’ve been talking every day since then. Its great, to reach into the past and bring something so precious back with you. I’ve missed her so much, her whole family. I still write her mom all the time, or when I can anyway…but they were my best memories back home in Cali. In fact all my best memories take place in another state, haha. Calif, New York…or another country, like Mexico..mmm Cancun….ok well back to reality…

I was thinking, I am not exactly surprised about Sam. And in all honesty, I expected it, and held a lot of myself back from the pain of being let down. I don’t want to be her ONLY friend, I just dont want to be forgotten, and I know she’s the type of person who will forget…and thats okay. She needs something constantly new and changing in her life. I don’t think with her anything remains the same. But I have other friends to be greatful for, they may not live here, in this city with me, but they’re there, and I know I can talk to them whenever I need to. They always talk about how the net is such a scarey place, but its where I feel the safest. It is where I have met the people who matter the most to me. And the sincere ones have stuck it out with me…some even from the very begining. Maybe that makes them just as pathetic as me, but at least we can be pathetic together, haha.

Well, thats my Oxygen channel moment for now…have a nice night everyone.