Killing Time..and people?

Well again I am at work, however not on the clock. But I am always here! Time is money right?…lol not here..  Anyway I am in better mood today I think. Frank and I had a good conversation when he logged back on. He claims he only logged on because he couldn’t sleep and there was nothing on TV. I think he knew I was upset with him and he couldn’t sleep knowing that. One of the first thing he asked when he got on was what is wrong, why are you not very patient with me today? I told him I just wanted to talk to him, that I was feeling down. He kinda coddled me with words after that, since thats all we have until we get to see eachother again. He’s still in the dog house for now though! Even though he didn’t admit thats what he was doing, I am glad he made the effort anyway. And to think, thats all it took. 

I don’t understand why men are so complicated like that. They think it is so damn hard to please a woman, but really, all it takes is a little recognition, affection and quality time. Make a girl feel special for a day and she’s on a high for months…or weeks anyway lol. At least for me anyway. You don’t need presents and fancy things to win my affection. Those things are nice, and sometims very heartfelt, but I am also just as happy when you SHOW me you love me. I just need a little bit every now and then to keep me going. I think men make it out to be harder than it is. Always trying to figure us out. But when we’re moody they get all weird, start cracking PMS jokes until we’re pissed off and then they don’t know why we’re mad, so they get all defensive and storm off …blah blah blah…when all we wanted was to be left alone or given a hug to make us feel better! Instead they try an anaylze things and try and be all logical. Just STOP. Its that easy, I swear. I think a lot of the times guys just have bad timing. lol, they try and offer advice when a woman is in a highly emotional state or something and they aren’t looking for advice just then, and when the woman gets mad the men get mad and then they’re both mad and fighting because the man can’t understand why the woman wont be ‘reasonable’ and the woman doesn’t understand why the man wont just shut up and lend her his shoulder until she’s calmed down and ready to take his advice!!! Ahhhhh it feels all like one big circle, lol. Maybe we’re complicated after all, haha.

Anyway, so I have become pretty good friends with this girl at work, Samantha. She’s a little reckless and silly sometimes, and generally we have a good time. But I think we’re either spending too much time together or she’s becoming a little immature lately. She thinks every person is rude and will get an attitude with them, like if we go out to eat, or even with our own customers or something. It is so embarressing sometimes. She over reacts to everything! and I mean the smallest, stupidest things. Like one day we couldn’t decide where to go for lunch, so I finally just asked her to pick and she said for me to…so I got a little impatient and then suggested applebee’s, and the whole time, throughout our meal all she did was complain about how that wasn’t what she wanted. And then like I waited for her to go through the door and she just stopped, I was like what are you doing? And she got all pissed off because she thought I had an attitude!!! So then I felt all stupid and guilty for something I didn’t even do! lol.  She’s been extremely grumpy lately. I know part of it is because a guy she was talking to online for like a month and a half (and after a month she spent 400 bucks on a plane ticket to see him in Dec) has just dissapeared off the face of the earth, he’s in the marines. He told her he was going out into the fields and has been gone almost two months. But like two weeks after he was gone she was already kissing on another guy. Not that its my business, and I will be some one’s friend even if they do something I think is wrong, but then she complains about him being gone and not calling her. She’s not even being faithful! It’s getting kind of old. She whines a lot too about how bad life is. Granet she’s had some hard knocks….She’s told me about her past….I can see where some might become bitter and mean.

I dunno, but like when she eats here at the motel, she wipes ALL her food onto the floor, and then I get yelled at because it’s messy, lol. So that’s not cool. The problem is, outside all of these issues I know she can be a kind, warm hearted person. But sometimes I wonder if her constant crankiness is what makes me feel so angry and blue all the time. Like her feelings and attitudes are rubbing off on me. And so much of what she gripes about are such stupid and petty things. Like every time our boss does our schedual, and I actually get a Friday off, Samantha complains the whole time about having to work on a Friday. I feel like saying SUCK IT UP. I’ve been doing it the last three years. And when she gets so upset over something that shouldn’t upset her she gets all pissed off at me when I try and calm her down. If she WANTS to be angry, ok, but damn…don’t take it out on me, lol. But I really like her as a friend too, and I hate to see her like this at 19 years old. There’s so much she’s missing out on by being so grumpy all the time. she’s so scared to try anything new. And it also is hard to stay irritated with her for long because sometimes she realizes her bitchyness and apologizes to me ya know? So yeah..Thats my vent for the day..lol..