Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

And apparently I am DOG ugly…dumbass boss..

On her way out the door today, she stopped to get the girl’s picture (who I am in the process of training) and I said yeah, today she’s havin a pretty hair day. (She had it all styled instead of pulled back in a pony tail.) And this is how the conversation went from there.

B= bitch                M=me

B: And she has make up on!    Everyone should wear make up.
M: What if somebody doesn’t like to wear make up?
B: They should wear it anyway. They don’t realize how much prettier it makes them.  All of you girls here NEED to wear it!
M: What is that supposed to mean?
B: Exactly how it sounds. (she looked at me–>) Everyone here needs to wear it, even you.  L (another desk clerk) looks haggard too. She’d be so much prettier if she wore make up.
M: Some people are beautiful without make up.
B: well maybe some, but not anyone here thats for sure.  Make up would make you look better hanna. You need to start wearing it.

And thats where I got up and walked out of the room. What in the hell man? The sad part is, I WAS wearing a little. I always do. She wears so much make up she practically looks like a clown. But to tell me I look bad with out it? SCREW YOU. I may not be gorgeous, but I am sure as hell not going to…..GRRRRRRRRRRRRR I am so mad I can’t even finish my sentence! Frank asked me why I even cared. BECAUSE, I was INSULTED. Told I wasn’t pretty. Maybe I shouldn’t care what people think of me, but thats a lie. Everyone cares a little about what other people think of them. So yes I am a little hurt. I can’t help it. So now I want to boycot make up and just be ugly! Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t already have such a low image of myself. Frank tells me all the time I am pretty, but I don’t believe it. And when some one else reinforces what I believe, I feel really low. I always come to work bathed, dressed in pressed clothes and everything. I always look presentable and ready to greet customers. Then why do I still have my feelings hurt?

Oh well. That was my drama for today.