Pulling A Double, I need Caffine and a ciggerett
Huh, too bad I don’t smoke. Uhg, and I have sworn off caffine…or caffinated drinks anyway. Stupid new girl called in sick last Thursday, so I had to come in on my day off. Then tonight she never shows up for the midnight shift so I have to work another 8 hours.So sunday I will have 16 hrs! The pay check will be nice but I feel like I am running ragged. I need a freakin break. But since they’re relying on me so much, and taking up so much of my time, I am going to have no qualms about asking for some days off this summer. They can either comply or have fun looking for another damn employee. I NEED a break from this place. I haven’t had a vacation in two years. I would say its time, wouldn’t you?
But not much else is new. I have been kind of depressed lately. I know why but I can’t seem to pull myself from the stupor. It kind of sucks. I know what would fix it and I don’t have the means to do it. I am trying to look on the bright side of things and trying to find something to look forward to but I am finding it a bit difficult. I haven’t spoken to my friends in weeks…Since…Jan….something like that. Kind of crazy huh? They don’t call and I have long since given up. I am not even interested anymore. Thats what bumms me out. That now I have just built up this guard where I tell myself I don’t care that I don’t socialize with my peers..my so called friends. I don’t want to. I am tired of the same ol routine. Its so not even worth it. In a few years, I’ll be out of this hell anyway.
Its rather cold in this office. I haven’t felt my fingers in hours..heh, kind of scarey. I keep waiting for them to turn blue and fall off or something. I should have brought a sweater. I did something incredibly bold for me and I cant quit laughing at myself for doing it. Frank is always bugging me about sending him a topless photo of myself…and I have taken some of cleavage…just teasers because I am too modest to take the top and bra off for the pic, lol. But in every cosmo magazine guys are always talking about how it really turned them on when their girl took a naked photo of herself and sent it to him…or left it some where for him to find….and today Frank was all moody and going to bed early..which is odd for him….I was getting ready for work…and snapped a few pictures with my camera phone. And as I was sitting in my car, waiting for it to warm up I sent them to his email! :0 !! I know he hasn’t been up nor online since I left because surely he would have messaged me. Shocked out of his skull. But I have been checking my phone all night..haha. It was an incredibly bold thing for me to do. I know its not like he hasn’t seen me before…but pictures seem..soo….personal..easy for the wrong hands to get ahold of…lol..It feels like a…’slutty’ thing to do….feels kind of good actually. To be drawn out of my goody two shoes shell. I wish he’d check his email already, haha.
Well I signed up for summer classes. Just like 2 of them and then one online. So I really only have to make up two courses now which I can do next summer. So that’s pretty cool. I have already started the financial aid (for fall and spring) process so that it’s done before summer ever gets here and I don’t have to worry about it later. I can just start my classes and not have to stress over how I am going to pay for it. In fact, since I got financial aid for last fall and this spring, I am getting like a 2900 dollar refund! Pretty cool. Its going right back into my savings where it came from! But I haven’t signed up for summer aid yet…can’t until the 21st…so keep your fingers crossed.
Well, I am gunna go update my fat girl diary…( I have lost 9 pounds though!!! hooorah!) Thank you, thank you..no applause needed…:P