Heads Up

Well not much is new. I have taken to reforming myself. Monday I started a diet and routine exorcises. I’ve sworn of candys and sodas and anything like that for one month. If I can make it that long then I know I am dedicated to losing the weight and feeling better about myself. Just in these few short days I already do! I started a public diary…hoping that if I made it public it’d be like a promise to my readers you know? I hate letting people down, or to break promises. This way I am FORCED to keep on with my goal.

A customer the other night said I look 28! I am barely even 20 so what an insult. But I bet I do look 28 or something like it. I never go out and have fun. I dont do anything to feel young. So I probably DO look how I feel. How depressing huh? But its not like I have anyone I can be young with. I don’t see anybody other than my mom or employees at work. I don’t go out, if I smile its just to be nice to a customer or something. People are such homebodies back here, and its so hard to find some one that actually wants to get out. But what can you do huh? Its the same shit every entry I guess.

Frank has been more attentive. We had a talk and I think he FINALLY caught on to my feelings and has made more of an effort to spend a little time with me. The other day he even said he loved me. We rarely say it to eachother, he’s really weird around stuff like that, but when he says it he means it. You know?

They are giving me 40 hrs at work now. They fired one of the night auditors and have just hired some one new. Which means yep, again I get to train the person. I am tired of training people! I wish they’d hire some one reliable, and keep them. But there is a lot to know when you’re a desk clerk. Things are ALWAYS coming up. So it takes a long time to get used to it which makes you a little slow. The owner thinks that if you’re not as fast as I am by the end of the week, you have to go. lol. I only got this fast because I’ve been doing it for 2 years! Silly people. I made a joke to the owner about getting a second raise, the one they gave the Laura back in Jan, (shes the one they fired) so that I’d make 6.50 instead of 6.25 and he made excuses but my manager was like but Ish she has alllllllllllll this experience. You might want to consider it. She’s your best employee! Darn smitten I am! Gimme dat raise buddy. You’re a millionair, another 25 cents wont break you, lol.

Okay..well time to shower and ready myself for the fun night of training a blank canvas….ahhhhhhhhhh this would be a great night for chocolate..lol