Happy Valentines Day To Mr. No One

I should apologize to him for expecting so much. Not even so much, just enough to feel special. But I dont think he caught on. There were no I love yous….not a simple e-card with a goofy looking animal that says ‘I Miss You!’ or anything. Not one hint that yesterday was a day of “love”. Its not even that he didn’t go over board to show how much he cares for me yesterday, its that since he returned back to college I suddenly seem and feel very unimportant. He never has time for me, but he has time for his friends..when they want to go out..I’ve been lucky to get 15 minutes with him a day. So yes, yesterday I would have liked some attention. But he doesn’t get how easy it is to make me happy. At least when it comes to stuff like that. Maybe this is my mom’s fault, she has gone out of her way to celebrate every holiday with me and always makes it important to make me feel special. I guess you can’t expect everyone to be that way, expecially a guy. I don’t need material possesions..I would have been thrilled with Just an ‘I love you…I wish I could be there with you….and….’  instead I feel really let down.  I know if I tried to explain to him how I feel he wouldn’t get it. He’d turn it into a fight and say I am acting crazy. He’s not really the best with emotions…but he should be. Coz I am full of them. My feelings are hurt none the less. I’ve been kind of down lately anyway….normally he notices…and always tries to figure out whats wrong…but not lately…and that bums me out even more.  I need to just forget it and not let it bother me. Easier said than done…I gatta get back to work…