Three Months…

Well its been nearly two or three months since I have last heard from my “best” friend. It has been really diffult to keep myself from picking up the phone and calling. But she still has made no effort. And I am tired of being the one who always calls..or makes plans to do something. Half the time we do something together she winds up on the phone with her boyfriend anyway so its never fun for me. Its kind of sad. I love being her friend. But I am tired of having the friendship by myself. Its getting harder and harder to keep myself from picking up the phone  and calling. I get so desperate sometimes..and then I wind up on here..lol Some one I know ran into her in the store…I asked if she even asked about me and they said no…I wonder if I did something to piss her off or something? Well if I did she should at least be grown up enough to tell me what I did so we could have moved passed it. Shrug….what do you do? I guess I can start by stop waiting by the phone or something every time it rings. I can’t wait to move away and forget Missouri ever happened. I hate it…Hate it…Hate it..just brings more dissapointment into my life.

I often wonder if I expect too much from my friends. Maybe I should lessen my standards or something?