Complexity

So this is me, huh?

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others
    You are very strong-willed and proud, but intensely private and not easy to know well. Behind your quiet exterior lies a great deal of emotional depth, sensitivity, complexity, and also fierce determination. When you want something you go after it rather quietly but insistently and wholeheartedly – and you usually get it.

Hmm, interesting, cos in many ways it’s true.  But in just as many ways, it’s been a hindrance to my life.  It means I have been willing and able to live my life in my imagination…think the thoughts, and note them down sometimes perhaps, but forget about the real world, and how things work out here.

I think I’ve made up my mind about that little situation from my previous entry.  I’m going to do what I always knew was the right thing to do, and I’m going to walk away.  I hate that I had to really think about it, and almost considered going for it, but as I was told before, you can’t control your thoughts, and your thoughts shouldn’t be what you judge your self by….however you can always control your actions, and that is what counts at the end of the day.

I don’t know if I’m making an effort to believe that because it makes me think I’m not such a bad person, and I’m somewhat hiding behind it, or if it’s because there’s an element of truth in it.  Either way, I do still feel guilty for thinking about it and not walking away straight away….I hope that’s still ok.