Irrational…never!!! :)

I forget that life sometimes gets a little weird.  Weird in both good and bad ways.
I also forget that I, like many others, am sometimes susceptible to irrationality!
I guess it isn’t so much that I forget, but moreso that I was reminded again.

I’m sure I told you all that I was seeing someone now, and he is really
lovely…not a typical bloke…not like the ones I seem to have found
in the past.  Anyways, we met up yesterday, had a real fun
day…we went to the Tate Modern so I could take pictures.  It was
just fun, save for dinner afterwards, which wasn’t our fault, just that
the staff were silghtly incompetent!  (understatement)!

Anyways, last night when I got into bed I had a sudden wave of panic
wash over me, and just found myself worrying about him just up and
leaving, you know, scarpering for good.  Anyways, I ended up
ringing him and explaining this to him, poor thing, I guess I just
kinda sprung it on him, which wasn’t really fair, cos I know in my
heart of hearts that he would never do that.  Nothing happened for
me to think that, nothing has ever happened, and I don’t honestly (or
rationally) think that he would do that. 

Anyhow, we spoke about it and sorted it out.  But I feel kinda bad
now, that he may think that I think he is capable of that, and I
actually honestly don’t.

Well, guess it’s good to sometimes remember that we can all be
irrational…nobody is perfect, which means that I should realise it’s
ok when I’m not perfect.

So asides from that, how are you all?  I have to apologise for
lack of catching up with your diaries, and for lack of updating my own.
Am really stupidly busy at work, but hopefully, with a little luck,
it’ll ease off in the next few months.

I hope you are all well.  I really do miss being on here…need to
find myself some more time to come back and spend it with “the family”
(that’s you guys)!

Ok, off to bed for me.

Kisses and hutgs for you all…..love ya guys!

Lovesexy
xxx

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April 4, 2005

im glad everything seems really positive for you right now 🙂

April 4, 2005

Don’t worry about it my beautiful AfCon. If when they’re not the usual type of bloke, it’s just too much like hard work to start second guessing men. If you think they’re quiet and having second thoughts about a relationship, what’s actually going through their mind is they’re wondering if they can get ice cream. Trust me, I’m (a special!) one of them. Love you loads and *mwah* back at you!

April 5, 2005

It’s good to let him know what’s on your mind.

April 21, 2005

you rock