I guess the world still spins….

Over the weekend, I’ve been thinking about this a lot.  I’ve had this reel play over and over in my mind..I can’t switch it off.

Christmas with my Dad.  To spend a year with him, around the table…fun and festivities…the usual.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot recently.  I’m going through a phase of missing him like mad.  I kinda feel like there are so many things at the moment I want to talk to him about.  Get his opinion on things, and people, and events.  Just life in general you know.

I think this year will be really hard for me.  It’s gonna be difficult for me to keep it together whilst we will have all the family round.  It’s just going to highlight that empty space even more…

At the moment, I’d give anything to sit down and have a chat over a cup of tea or at the dinner table.  I just wanna ask him so many things..get his opinion on my life at the moment.

Don’t abandon me this Christmas and New Year…don’t let me find that release at the bottom of a bottle…someone please give me an ounce of clarity right now…it’s what I need more than anything.