long time no update

ok well here i am guys im not dead and i do check most days to check on everyone elses live just dont tell you about mine i guess!

well i suppose that the people that read this no about nicky and i, well i packed her off to uni this weekend which was incredibly emotional and spent the whole day not wanting to talk to anyone becuase i knew if i did i would burst out crying. anyways sure enough mum made me talk to her and i burst out crying and then she said some very mean things and i stormed out the houe. only having to return 2 hrs later to go out for my dads birthday meal during which i didnt say a word.  after a while when everyone had left the table for various reasons it was just jo (my mums bect friend ) and i sitting at the table and she asked me how i was.  and the second i thought about it i burst out crying.  i am soooo happy guys soooo in love sooo everything possible really.  anyways i dont get to see nicky until next friday whioch means it will have been 2 weeks we have spent apart and thats a week more than we have spent apart so far.  its killing me.

anyways im keeping my days busy and have made lists of stuff that i want to do durng my week and then im working everynight this week.. monday-thursday 6-11 and friday 5-2.  yep thats right 2 in the morning thats gonna be a horrible shift.

well ive also been busy applying for jobs and i finally chased some of them up today:
gig house – handed in application 2 weeks ago, rang today was told they really are looking for friday/saturday night but i need to ring and talk to the manager another day. (i wanted preferably mon-thurs work because nicky ands i have arranged to see each other every other weekend from friday afternoon to monday morning)
the new rose – walked in the other day because they hadf a sign up, said they would send me an application form which they havnt. rang this morning to be rudly told that they had hired all they needed bye! (charming!)
the square bar – walked in a few weeks ago after seeing a sign, got asked if i could work that weekend and the weekend after but i couldnt as i already had plans to be in poole and other stuff.  was told to take CV in asap.  did that 3 days later and was told i would b contacted soon, rang this morning and was asked to come in between 12-2.30 to talk to the manager.  (basically no1 had a clue what was going on and im getting very cross with there now!)
the grange hotel – popped in ealier and filled in an application form but didnt really like it there so will avoid job there i poss
stirrups country hotel – rang this morning and spoke to the lovely manager spoke for a while and she asked a few questions and then asked if i could come in with my CV on monday at 10 to have a look around and a chat and go from there.  so that sounds nice and hopefull and i said iw anted to get more bar experience and they want bar staff sso always good, just need to talk through availability really i think.  she sounded very impressed when i said i worked at the coppid beech currently! tee hee woo hoo

anyways thats my life all fun fun fun ooo nickly had her rugby team trials this afternoon so im just waiting to hear back from her that she didnt get crushed by the bigger girls!! its her birthday friday and i wont even get to see her!! how sucky!!

xxxxxxx

p.s ooo i like this in white the writing looks really cool!