mixed entry

ok well i guess the title probly warns you! this is going to be a not so interesting number rambling

1.  had fun today i went and sat in the garden and convered up my horrible sun burn on my right hand side with half a skirt, then i realised then my head was buring so i managed to manover the side of my shirt that i wasnt wearing s it was covering my head and then i clipped it there with a clip from my hair! i looked a sight!!!

2.  i have just sat down at the computer and gone through my hotmail emails –  and i am now left with a grand totalt of 41 as apposed to the 100 odd i had on there before! ive deteleted lots of the emails that were kept for sentimnetal sake and a few that i cant remember why i kept them.  i found quite a funny email which was sent quite a few months ago. it was me to me and it contained a files names blues history and the only text was DO ESSAY. i laughed when i saw that because that essay was due in months ago and i did it…… last night!

3.  have come to the conclusion that i am actually a horrible snob and i do have standards of living apparently!!!
ok so picture this – (background to my story)

‘met’ a guy online about a week back, sent lots of emails and then sat up one night for 4 hrs talking online! tought he was great we could really talk about anything! things were going well and fast but it was ok i could deal with it. met up with him the next day and it was creepy but i couldn handle it. turns out im not attracted to him in anyways but he is good to chat to.  ok so then the other night who pops up online but ……leon.  now it was only 2 days before that i had my answer back from him saying that he had thought about it and it wouldnt work while he was away for the same reasons as last time. thats ok i thought that would b the case anyways. so anyways i start talking to leon and he puts on his webcam! blow number one! i forgot just how fucking gorgeous he is! his smile his eyes his everything wow! he stood up at one point and i realised he was only wearing a dressing gown and it revealved some of his body! hell yeh in heaven,  things happened and things got heated and we said how much we missed each other.  he started thinking back to memories of us ect ect and it got hot. anyways it kinda knicked me a bit cos i realised how perfect he is for me (at this moment in time) and how thats the sort of person im looking for if i cant have him, anyways this other guy is tryin to chat to me online but all i can think about it leon.  i cant be with someone that i cant stand, that im not attracted to and someone that without even doing anything my parents hate cos i met him online.  that really got to me.   ok so met up with this guy again after my exam tuesday and went for a walk where he made me explain everything to him. personaly i didnt tink i had to justify myself when i sad that it wasnt going to work with us at the moment.  but i did it cos i decided i sounded like a bitch.  so explained and got quesitoned more and more.  i tired to put it nicely that i dont no what to do right now cos he really isnt my type atal and i realised that day how much certain things he did annoyed me so fucking much.  ok ill describe him to you andmaybe it will help – he has a total of 19 tattoos (not a problem i like them except when they r huge and cover his body not in a tasteful way, he even has one of jesus ripping his own face off!), he has dodgy facial hair not sure what to make of it, his teeth are yellow and crooked and awful. anyways ok so he lives in bullbrooke and i went round to his house today again tryin to prove we were friends.  approced the house and i got scared! it looked like shit, ok so went inside and met the parents who no offense looked like they belonged in a trailor part and then i noticed his dad.  and that is clearly where this guy gets his imfluence from.  went to his room and he had a pile of clothes soooo big just thrown in the middle of his floor and made no attempt to move them.  he bed cover is flowery and he actually expected me to snuggle up wiht him – i would rather be sick! (wow im a bitch -totaly bitch!).  ok so finally left and i feel better now i realise that he is someone i couldnt never ever in a million yrs be with and im struggling to find something we have in common to hold onto while we be friends.  hes soo wossy its unbelievable when i said that i was calling things off he said something along the lines of it felt like i had ripped his heart out and put it in a blender ect ect and he actually said that to my face, what the hell do u say to a guy who says that after you have ‘known him’ a grand total of …… 6 days!!!!

hmmm ok so moving on lol! cant wait till my exams are over and then im jet setting!!!

28th june- everybodys 18th birthday party!!
30th june – lego land
7th july- graduation ball with no date!
10th july – go to mallorca with the girls
17th july- return BROWN
20th july -head to gibraltar
27th july – head home
17th august -i think its results day so ill find out if i got into leeds!
around 21st august – go to portugal
4th september maybe return home!

round abouts then if all goes to plan i plan on moving somewhere (not sure where) hopefully with renee and find a live in hotel job. obviously ill find the job before i go! then stay there till xmas i suppose return home, meet friends, see family and then 3rd jan approx off to INDIA!! and then return march time and then april SOUTH AFRICA here i come!! then home, working, UNI!!

i am very sorry for that long email evberyone it turns out i was in the mood to type!

xxxxx