I renounce you….

It’s fine I don’t need you either, you are all something I cling to from a former life. I need to let go of this past self and cut the ties, she had the right idea.
I don’t know who I am right now and that is because I have lost myself I need to lose my past and still somehow cling to my true self…hold on tight. You don’t know me, none of you I will show you me and you will not like it…I will not be the person you thought  was anymore….

I don’t think I have ever been so hurt, treated inadvertently so coldly. If I knew you could I would want you to, isn’t that what we are here for? Doesn’t friendship stand for anything? No clearly relationships are like fine powder, can’t be seen from a distance and disappear without a trace at the first sign of a breeze. I wish I could forget but I know myself, I thought I knew you. No I guess I don’t and I never will, I can not lay claim to anything….why did you do this to me? But you didn’t did you? I did it to myself, like I always do…now I know what Pheobe meant.

I renounce you like the evil you are.