Come dig me out!

Sooooo,

Not a lot to report really have been getting stoned with Ashton, Daisy, Harry and Leo and am quite fed up with it if I’m honest. I am sick and tired of getting stoned stuffing myself with food and going to sleep, this isn’t fun, we never laugh anymore.
It is just becomming a tiresome habbit which leaves me feeling disgusted with myself. I am going to have to make some serious changes in my life, you can not be a successful teacher if you are getting stoned! It is such a hideous contradiction and I can’t live a lie, it’s got to stop before some how it bites me in the bum!

Nan has just had surgery to drain fluid from her brain…..scary stuff! I hope everything will be ok with her now, she did suffer a stroke and I hope the surgery will have made her feel better!

Mum, coutney and Mark are in Las Vegas, so I am looking after cassa Lewis with my beloved Daisy Bella Fonte.

I know that it is always said, I know that I am always the one to say it but I need to loose weight! I can’t feel confident or sexy at this weight I need to take control before it’s physically impossible to do it. Do you know how hard it is? Eating is synononomous with happiness for me, the two things are inextricably linked in my mind! I have to stop, I have to stop, I have to stop! I know I do, yet I can’t, I need to do this, yet I have no will power.

Well, I am promising nothing. I will try my best, never gonna loose weight, Huh? We’ll see, oh we’ll see. It may not be masses, it may not be right away but I will do it!

Food diary:

Small bowl of Choco reels semi skimmed milk,
Fish finger sandwhich with kethcup.

So far it is ok, I will see how I go.

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