My eyes are tired

I just want to remember this. Last night I slept with my friend Brandon’s girlfriend Chelsie. I had fun but I had been up for 48 hours and I was so tired. My neighbors probably hate me for the noise. They have slammed the doors a few times today and I think they either do that normally and I don’t notice or they’re frustrated after all the noise from last night. I don’t want to be a bad neighbor.
i had a friend over that I met because he is a bartender at the place I used to be a regular. I just remembered his boss coming over before he did. The guy is really sad about his divorce (the manager) but tbh he deserves to be treated so much better and it wasn’t even his choice. Will message him now to thanks for hanging out.
just looked and I do not have his number though he has been a constant blessing in my life for years. He pours heavy vodka drinks when I need them and has saved me so many nights and never asked questions. Just got his number from the bartender that was here with me. He has beautiful eyes and is meeting a big music producer today and he deserves the world, so I hope he gets it. He does good music stuff but I have to distract myself from dreams of success so I can accurately hope for the right energy. He will be successful though.

i have had an easy time lately saying no when people want to sleep together. I am having trouble being sexually drawn to men. I feel I need a break from that type of interaction, at least in a small way. I am fortunate for everyone in my life and wish all the good people the best and the bad ones I hope aren’t bad to others than me. Going through a lot with that now and the harassment and threats from a recent ex. Can not wait to put it behind me. Need to decide on going out of town for family or not tomorrow

love