i like too much

Destructive behavior. What is it that is so appealing about you? You ravage people’s lives and yet they continue to desire you. Is it the unknowing consequence of meeting your fate? The chilling refuge they find amidst your alluring wings? The flight is a juxtaposition to the tender love we seek, but nonetheless, ever so fleeting.
Control. I find myself wanting to lose it just once and know that I will be safe on the other side. Emotionally safe, physically safe. Elated because it happened. And the guilt didn’t suffice. I stayed at the surface as I ever do, where were you? Really, I am so under that I find I’m the only one here. How can one be this alone and so far gone that no one notices? Because I’ve done so well making sure I didn’t get noticed. That’s what rules are for, lines. Stay in them, or find someone who is willing to move their line around you.
Some people make promises that they will, but you know expectations. You know.
Human nature. Is to leave.