Burning hemisphere’s

To be able to sit and think, in a desolate state is a very sorrowful experience. 19 years of age without ambition. No motivation to benefit the rest of your life yet finding nothing wrong with what your currently doing (nothing.) The constant smell of a musty ciggarette burning, the fog filling the house. Everything moves in slow motion and the audio waves roll in slowly. I miss conversing with others of my mind state, im currently bantering with my second half. How long can I carry on trying to debate my own decisions? *sigh* what a night……..  I shall drift to an unconcious state where my music is played as comfort and my only need is more time…… tick tick tick. Goodnight everyone