5-24-2011 #2

Well like normal he came home in a happy chipper mood, while I am upset about the end of our marriage.  I asked him how he can be in such a great mood when it is the end of our marriage and like normal he does not answer.  He did call me judgemental as he was walking out the door today, because I said he is messed up in the head right now and that it was right what he was doing.  Was overly drill sergenty again today with the boy’s as they got in trouble, and then said, "When they are with me I will discipline them how I want!" I told him they are getting in trouble because of what he has done to our family.  Our family is split apart in separate rooms and lives even if we do live together.  Our kids see my pain, and the division, neglect, and disrespect.  He left shortly after he got home like normal to go work out–I think!  This is an everyday thing.  I am constantly left to do everything, and then watch tomorrow he will put me down for something I did not do around the house again.  God please give me strength to find something to take my mind off of everything and ignore the pain I am feeling.  Help me to see past his self-centered happiness as I am sure he does not realize it yet what damage he is about to do.