That’s Why They Call Me Mr. Fahrenheit

[Time] 714PM
[Mood] Ill but happy
[Wife’s Mood] Headachy but happy
[Baby’s Mood] Full O’ Beans
[Music In My Head] Simon and Garfunkel – Cecelia

I am inexplicably sick. Yesterday morning I began feeling ill in the car on the way to work. I was stressed, as I was late for work and had been told personally by my manager’s manager in a one-on-one that I will be fired immediately if I am late. Well, I called in and used my odd version of charm to get things smoothed over. Got in, had a good day, and was not ill at all. Shasta picked me up at five, though, and as I sat in the back seat with Cade I began to feel insanely ill again. I was, of course, quite annoyed that I might be developing some form of car sickness. I’ve never been car sick before. Well, that fear annoyance was allayed when I continued to feel ill when we got home. I wanted to eat dinner, as it tasted wonderful, but it was making my stomach very angry. I went to bed at the unprecedented hour of about 700PM. I slept all night, until about 530AM, and woke feeling well. I then made the error of standing up out of bed. WHOOSH!, it hit me like a decorative snail falling off a railing, or a bag of frozen peas fired from a cannon. I was dizzy, and nauseated(nauseous is not a real word), and wanted nothing more than to eat breakfast, yet wanted nothing more than to avoid food altogether. I sat miserably playing with Cade, watching him smile, until Shasta came to feed him. It was about 11AM when I finally could not take it any more, and had some wonderful beautiful spaghetti leftovers. I had two huge plates of it, and then fought to keep them down. I showered, and have played in the man room on the 360 for much of the day. McDonald’s has partnered with Xbox Live and is giving out free copies of Austin Powers(yes, the whole first movie). I downloaded it, which took all of a minute or so. I also downloaded a buttload of other free stuff this morning. Xbox Live on 360 is a beautiful thing. I am now about to completely change the subject, far more than my segue would allow. My 360 died on June 10th. It happens. Xbox 360s have a life span of about a year. Microsoft knows this, and when you call customer service, they send a box to your home, and you put your 360 in it and send it back to them for absolutely free repairs. It appears as though they took my 360 out of its casing though, and sompletely replaced it. I like that very much. Anyways, a problem with that, is that all downloaded content on the hard drive(which you remove prior to shipping and repairs) needs to be re-downloaded when the 360 comes alive again, because of the new serial number. All paid items are still considered paid, and Shivering Isles for my Oblivion didn’t even take the hour or so that it originally took to download. Overall, I like this new system Microsoft’s got going on. People made the re-downloading seem like a real bear, but it’s actually pretty convenient and fun. I all, I love my 360 like a son. A son named Batman. In other news, and in a bad segue to the original plotline, my mother-in-law, who does the exact same job as I do, said that my being sick is likely from stress at work. UOP Online is an insanely stressful place to work. The upper management is about as cuddly as a freshly set bear trap. I will say, though, they pay well for an entry-level position. Well, I think I’m going to go back to Oblivion while Shasta’s out shopping with her mother. I’ll type more oftem if I get around to it. If I don’t, however, then treasure this entry. In fact, hold your computer to your bosom and pet it gently, like a cute puppy. This entry likes hugs.

.eve.

July 15, 2007

RYN: that’s pretty neat that we posted within 3 seconds of each other. You have noted before, but I thought it was a one off. Hope you’re feeling better, I’m hugging my laptop for you 🙂

Eleanore

that doesn’t sound like much fun. i do hope you feel better soon. : )

July 18, 2007

i know that i’ve completely fallen into a rut where i date jerks, smoke and drink too much, and go on living my life the way i never have before. but that’s what happens when you’re with a man for three years, living with him even, convinced that you’re going to MARRY him, and then it just…stops. that’s it. game over, i lose. i got screwed by him, horribly. emotionally and otherwise. i went

through quite a run around with him. because of him. FOR him on days… and it’s going to take time for me to find my groove back into the universe where all is right with the world. so, yeah, that IS my head injury that you might be talking about. complete and total shock. believing the same thing for three years on and then it turns out it was all … fake. try having shasta leave you now and

not be a copmlete wreck in every sense of the word after. it’s not fun, it’s not cool, and i certainly am not trying to make up excuses. because it’s not an excuse, it’s my reason why. i just gotta let go for a while and get my life back in order. i need at least that. i do appreciate your concern and your notes, though.

but please try being a little more empathetic. i know you know what i went through for eric. i moved to montreal for him, out and away from my family, just like you did for shasta. to have to give up EVERYTHING i worked my butt off for in montreal? my stuff, my social life, my friends… everything. to move back in with my parents, back here in the states, leaving everything behind… it really

hits you like a ton of bricks…and i don’t think that’s much of an exaggeration. it’s not easy, man. but thanks, again…

July 19, 2007

what i’m doing right now is redefining myself. when you live a life with someone for three years, your life becomes theirs. and it’s so easy to forget who you are individually. the life i knew was i make the coffee while he makes breakfast. i do the dishes while he folds laundry. you know what i mean, you get into such a groove with someone else and that’s just how it is. i have to figure out who

the hell i am again. so my energies are focused on that right now. i work two jobs and i’m starting a third next month just to keep busy. i’m one of the most responsible people you’ll ever meet in your life and while it sounds like i’m being an idiot going to random parties, i can assure you that i take every precaution there is to take before going to someone’s house i don’t know. i’m not stpuid

even though im sure it sounds like it right now. i have to go through this rough patch. i’m happy doing what i’m doing and i’m SO happy without eric in my life. i’ll go on to be rich, not dead. as i’m even meeting with producers and managers right now. so what if i go a little nuts on weekends with some friends i’ve been living away from for two years? i think that’s okay. and if i AM pregnant

(GOD FORBID) it isn’t with a burnout. it’s with one of the best people in my life right now. *sigh* i hate trying to justify myself and my actions but it seems like you think so little of me now. this is just me doing the things i could never do when i was in my relationship. i’m finally free and i’m going to take advantage of that for a while because it’s been so long since i could really spread

my wings…

oh and i’m planning on visiting a friend in AZ in the next few months. if i went i’d love to get a chance to meet you and shasta and baby. : )

i really, really do appreciate your concern, more than you could possibly know. <3333333

A decorative snail? Really! Sounds serious. Hope you have a will written!Learn while you’re young, kid. Use proper spelling and grammar on the net. The way you type makes you look like a fool. If you want respect, be respectable. You’ll be surprised how positively it will change your world. I found your note to some 13 year old, and it nearly made me cry with happiness. Or maybe I was about to cry from the pain of trying to read her “n-triez”. So thank you, for leaving that note, and for existing.

RYN Being a latino, I am not sure I get the bit about “authentic Mexican food” but I will eat an enchilada any minute of any day.