My Thai

Ok so you know how my last entry was all about not fucking Thai anymore.  Shit changes.  I never really stopped so much as I just didnt see him for a week or two….the next time I saw him I slept with him again.  Can’t help it.  He does it right.  Very right.  Very very right.  So anyways Waldo was being a deuche and I was in one of my big sad slumps and Drummer pulled me out.  Waldo has a crush on a girl who has a crush on me and yeah shes hot but shes one of those people who makes fan videos.  Like takes a song and makes a really bad music video to go with it.  And posts it on Youtube.  Only she thinks shes cool.  So obviously-NO.  Anyways shes not into boys so I think the whole thing is hilarious because Waldo tried to fuck her without me finding out so he could have me as back up.  So he cant have me ever again.  Yeah I do the same thing to him.  But in my opinion, double standards are ok when they are my double standards.  Follow?  So the whole situation got me over Waldo at last.  I started to see that I was rejecting Thai because Im terrified of being hurt but Im the one whose the asshole in the relationship.  So what the fuck?  He is a persistant guy.  I should date him just to show him why he should never have dated me.  Then the other night after his band played one of his friends told me how glad he was that Im Thai’s girlfriend.  Fuck.  So it was awkward and obviously I just went home and slept with him (my sister was at my place so I had to stay SOMEWHERE).  Thats apparently how I handle awkwardness.  Then last night I emailed him to ask whats going on because tonight is new years and I want to be focused on dancing drinking and wearing glitter, NOT THIS NONSENSE.  And so I told him Im terrified of being in a relationship with him because hes nice and if it doesnt work I wont have him around anymore.  And that I still want to be his girlfriend anyway and this is what he sent back:

So i’ve been meaning to ask you the same thing. Are you my girlfriend or what? (no really i have been). I guess i am kind of scared too. i haven’t even had a girlfriend in almost 2 years. And ever since i met you, I’ve always thought about being with you. So i don’t think you’re wrong and i would love to be your boyfriend, i am scared but i am happy. and i don’t thing its stupid to talk about this on here, i actually i rather like it. it’s less cheesy i think? i mean i already felt like we were together, that it was just sort of a matter of time? i feel quite attached to you. whheeww okay, now im starting to feel all gay-like. hehe. i’m terrified to see you. and by that i mean i can’t wait to see you

oh did i say email.  I meant ecard.  My ecard said "Im intimidated by your fashionable hat" and his said "we are total fucking badasses".

So were the first heterosexual couple ot be totally gay.

Gelfling and I are having dinner at his tonight, then we’re splitting off and going to a party only to meet up with him to crash.  I wonder what will happen if one or both of us wants to bring home a lady.  LOL.

Adventures in dating a nice guy.  Brace yourself.