blurrs

im so fucking restless, i jsut want to run and run, hike bike and strike at anything that comes near me, just a ball of frustration and desire. 

i need to just scream and cry, to forget the holes in my life.  one of the most important people in my life has left me by the curb. 7 years of being her best friend wasn’t enough. 

watch,
i can absorb shock like
it’s an enterprise.
interstate empire of
underground traintracks.
us, crossing the railroad at full speed, our headlights blurring.

an army of uncold unfeeling understated
underhands
under clothes
under the cover of darkness.
that’s why little girls in flowery dresses have stopped mattering.
she replaced me and i can’t take it,
i can’t take your distance.

you were a symbol of my innocence
and the expresswa back to it.
you were my partner, focused the
blurring highway and promised your hand to hold.
i am the tears on your face some nights,
we are tears in the dark on the highway and its snowing like february
but its supposed to be july forever.