Boredom….

Well I’m bored and can’t sleep so I figured I’d write in this. Lately I’ve been having problems with really bad headaches. I’ve always had problems with headaches, but they’ve been really bad. I thought that once the weather started to get nice and stay that way I’d feel better, but nope I still feel like crap. I don’t have any insurance, but finally went to the doctors after having a sinus infection for a month. I’ve had them enough times to know when I have one. I got a Z pak, but the thing is I’m allergic to pretty much every single antibiotic and Zithromax is the only one I know I can have. I think I’ve just taken it so much that it doesn’t really help anymore. When I took it, it helped some, but I was still having all these symptoms and still felt like crap. I can’t afford to go to the doctors again though. I’ve spent over $600 in the past month just on doctor stuff and medication since I have no insurance. It really stinks. My neurologist put me on antidepressants awhile ago for my headaches. He really pissed me off because he didn’t believe there was really anything wrong with me. At first he thought a muscle relaxant might help because my muscles are always so tight and tense and I have knots. He thought they might help. Then when i went back again he asked me if there was really anything wrong and if I actually needed treatment. I’m thinking I wouldn’t be wasting my time and definatley not my  money if I weren’t having problems. I don’t even go to the doctors until I’ve been feeling like crap for at least 2 weeks. He asked if they were affecting me and I told him yeah b/c then I can’t sleep at night and b/c I don’t sleep well I have problems thinking and concentrating in school and at work. He asked if I’ve ever been on Ambien and I told him no so then he said he was going to put me on an antidepressant and he emhasized the word ANTIDEPRESSANT. I was thinking I’m not depressed, which at the time I wasn’t. I’m not right now either really. Sure I’m kinda pissed off and hurt by ppl, but I’m certainly not depressed and I would know because I used to be. I haven’t been back to see him since and it’s been a few months now. At that time I did have insurance, but I figured if he really didn’t believe I was having problems then there was no point in going to see him. He’s the only doctor I’ve had who thought i was exaggerating ormaking things up. Or at least he’s the only one who’s showed it. It really made me mad because I’m not a hypochondriac for goodness sakes. I do have a lot of health problems and I wished they’d all go away, but I don’t think I’m sick all the time and feel like I need to go to the doctors or like i’m dying just because I start to feel a lil bad. Ok there was one time I felt like I was dying but that was only becauase I had mono and it was really bad, but anyways not the point. I just wish there was something I could do so I could start feeling better. My allergies and sinuses are really bad right now and it stinks because I take an antihistamine, a nasal spray, vitamins, calcium, and omega 3 and yet I still feel crappy all the time. I really thought it was just the rainy cold weather we’ve had here, but it has been nice this past week and I still feel this way. I really wish I had insurance so I could go to the doctors and I wish I wasn’t allergic to antibiotics.