7/24/07

Soo I’m meeting with my attorney tomorrow, well technically later this morning and I’m not sure what to expect. I hope everything goes well. I really don’t know what I’d do if I lost custody of my baby and especially if my ex got it. I don’t want him in my life anymore and I don’t want to have anything to do with him. HE doesn’t really want anything to do with us either. Sooo it really stinks. I wish I never had to go on medicaid because then I wouldn’t have this problem. I hope I have enough money to afford him too. He’s suppose to be really good so I’m sure I’ll go broke. But if I get to keep my daughter then it’ll be worth it. I just hope I don’t have to share. I know that’s selfish of me, but he really wouldn’t be a good influence on either of us. I don’t think I could stand being in the same room as him. Besides that I’ve had two people in my life die this past week and I couldn’t stand more bad news. At least not right now. Geez why is it that when things start to get a little better they just get worse again and more so than usual?