Afraid of getting hurt again….

I finally met a guy that I really like and I’m pretty sure I can trust him. We have a lot in common. He just doesn’t live here which really stinks, but we travel back and forth to see each other. I’m going to see him later today. I could actually see myself marrying him some day or someone like him. But I’m afraid of getting hurt since I’ve been hurt a lot in the past. A part of me wants to take that risk and the other part of me wants to push him away to make sure I won’t have to take that risk. I guess I’m just kind of confused as to what I want and should do. I know that everyone gets hurt by someone at some point in their life, but I’ve been hurt so much that I think if it happens again I’ll probably shoot myself or something. I just wish I knew if this guy is truly being honest with me and if he is someone I can trust. I don’t know what to do…