Frustration!!!!

Right now I am sooo frustrated!!! I have a medical card for my daughter since my job doesn’t provide insurance and the other day I got all these papers in the mail that I have to fill out if I want to keep it. They were from SRS. It didn’t bother me until I had to fill out all these papers on the father. It just brought back so much hurt, pain and anger. I thought I had gotten over him and for the most part I think I am; I’m just not over what he did to me. So maybe I’m not really over him. arggg I don’t know. But anyways I’m afraid they’re going to try and find him and I don’t want them to. I don’t want anything from him including child support and I don’t want him to have any rights. Selfish of me I know, but I just don’t think he deserves any because of what he did. Besides if he really wanted to be a part of our (my daughter and I) lives then he knows how to get ahold of me. He doesn’t want to be though and he doesn’t really care which is why he left in the first place. I just really don’t want to see him again and I don’t want him in my life or my daughters. I’m pretty sure he doesn’t really care about her and doesn’t want to be a father and he already told me he didn’t want to be a dad yet which is why he wanted me to either have an abortion or give up for adoption. But I suppose there’s still that slight chance that if SRS does hunt him down and find him that he might change his mind. I don’t want to share my daughter with him and I don’t want him anywhere near us. And it just frustrates me that I had to fill out all those papers. I’m hoping that they can’t search for him without my wanting them to, but I don’t know how that all works out. My mom’s a social worker and she said that she’s afraid that they probably will look for him. I just hate this whole thing.