fatty loser

I just read my last entry, and I was 107 lbs, but now I am 110 lbs…I ate 2 much recently, but I enjoy it. even though i know fat is un-health, i still non-stop eating. i forget to say that i m 153 cms only, so short

I am so stressful recently. Y? so many stuffs need to do, BUT too lazy to move on. sometime, i reli dislike myself. I know wt should i do, but only sit n do nth. reli wanna go bk to the childhood, no need to consider many, just sleep, eat, sch, etc…

when i m growing up, need to think about future, love, family, $$ etc…

n now, i m satisfy on my job, even though i dun like all my co-workers,  n i talked to myself that " i work for $$, n dun give a shit" . for the college, i knew i m VERY slow, i was studying in CC for 5 yrs. but i still keep it up, i hv to work in FT, n PT in sch…slow? so wt, at least, i m still moving on, n dun give up. I just dun care wt the ppl said.

my dry eyes, cannot wear contact lens for a while, so ugly me, but lucky my bf always support me, even i m ugly + fat + bad temper…haha, almost 6 yrs, my 1st luv, i think it is hard so me to meet the other man, who is reli luv me….although my bf doesn’t rich, he is nice, that’s enough. $$ can do anything, but true luv 

anyway, i just wanna write smth here tonite. i hv to read on my essay now…

hopefully, i can loss some weights in next entry….i should write my diary everyday