Feeling Lonely

RE EDITED….MAN TYPING WHEN VERY TIRED IS NTO A GOOD THING I MADE LOTS OF MISTAKES.

Ok my ex is still living here and U think that it would help that we still share a bed. I lay curled up next to him at night yet i still feel so lonely….maybe because I know he is no longer mine….maybe because all i feel is friendship and no love….maybe because I want so much more with him….Either way i feel so empty and alone. And I know that if it is bad now It is going to be HORRIBLE in a few weeks when he has moved out. I am going to curl up in my lil hole and cry and then scream and then cry some more…..How do you get over a six year relationship in a month???? Im not sure what to do….And then i have my worries because I have never lived on my own. I went from living with my mom and dad to living with my grandparents back to living with my mom and dad then i moved in with Larry(the ex) my friend missy came to live with us and then Larry moved out for a while the last time we split up a few months over the summer and it was me and missy. then larry moved back in and missy moved out So it was just me larry and the kids…Now its just going to be me and my kids…Im sure I will be fine but it is my biggest worry right now…..I do have a great family that will help and I know even though he isnt going to be living here he will be around if i need something as a friend. Anyways I am outta Here gotta go kick my kids in gear to head out to the bus….write more later.

OK MISTAKES CORRECTED I THINK