shine on me baby, ‘cos it’s raining in my heart.

[Listening To: Elliott Smith ]

Shane started talking to me on msn today.

we had a talk about everything that happened. And he explained how much i hurt him, especially by then turning around and going out with his mate. And I explained my reasons, and how I feel for josh.

And he;s spent most of the time since trying to convince me that he really doesn’t think josh is right for me, that i deserve someone "better" etcetera.

he tells me that everyone is worried about me. i got mad at that. how the hell would he possibly know that? he;s just making up bullshit. And then he said something about boomer being a fuckwit and i blocked him.

In other news, Dad confronted me last night because he thinks I have an eating disorder. He told me he "wasn’t having any of this anorexic bullshit." Me. Haha, what a fucking joke. I eat normal portions like a normal person. he just piles up plates and plates of food and expects me to be able to eat it all. That’s another thing that makes me mad. neither of them think i’m capable of looking after myself, like I’m 12 again.

tomorrow is LC day. Where LC does relaxing things and thinks about things. life in general. And sorting out her head, whcih is getting quite crammed up with nothingness and negative thoughts again.

goodnight.