Welcome to the Life of Purple Eyeshaow

I don’t know how to start… Dear Diary? Hi Everyone?  i think I’ll begin…

This is me. Purple Eyshadow.

I’ve had some bad experiences with online diaries and so i’ve decided this one is going to be totally personal as in I’m telling noone i even have one, I’m not telling personal things like my name or where i live. i am going to change the names of everyone mentioned. Anyway, enough of the serious stuff…want the juice about me?

I’m 17 years old…well actually I’m 16…my birthday is next week. (wait, that’s a personal thing, hehe) I’m single and am totally happy being single. I’ve been with someone since i was 11 and we broke up recently. His name will be Apple for this diary.  I really thougfht i loved him. i came to realise that i didn’t. i was comfortable with him. i relied on him to always be there and was close to him because he made me feel good about myself.  He did evrything for me and i took advantage of him.  Thats why i broke up with him – so we can both learn to live on our own. we depended on each other – me so he could allow me to act confidently in public because i felt i was somehow better than him so i could act above him – him so i could act confidently in public and lead him to places that he wouldn’t go before…like social occasions. this is all so ironic as i’m actually a very self-conscious person who daren’t do anything on her own in case i’m treated like an outcast and he is actually very secure in himself.

I’ve taken my GCSEs recently and gaine 4 A*s 4 As and 2 Bs.  I was SO pleased with that! not only because they were great grades but because i had a bit of a bad time during my exams. A week into them (during my latin exams) my grandad was diagnosed with cancer and during my english exam he was having an operation! He’s ok though. Having chemotherapy and radiotherapy and so far so good. No side affects really (touch wood) so it’s ok!

I’m now in 6th form and studying 5 subjects for my AS exams. These are biology, psychology, physics, maths and english literature.  I’d like to go into optometry in the future although the though of being an english teacher is very appealing…

I have one brother, my mum, my dad and my dog all of whom i love dearly.

I love all types of music except most hiphop. (there are a few songs that fall into that category that i like) Michael Jackson is a fave. I love Northern Soul and Motown music. i love things like Joss Stone.  Also very keen on Audioslave, red hot chili peppers, foo fighters, vanilla pod and things of that kind. Some R and B is ok sometimes although i rarely listen to it but i wouldnt turn it off.

I am a very passionate person btu sometimes too passionate about the wrong things! i also have a bad habit of either LOVING something or hating it. there is no in between. A person does one thing wrong and it automatically becomes a hate! hehe, it’s terrible but i cant help it. i dont ignore people though. i try and treat everyone equally and even if i hate them i dont leave them out. its not fun to be on the outside so i try and let everyone in!

well, i’m kindve rambling and i could go on forever talking about myself and trying ot explain who i am but i guess it’s not possible to in writing. You have to get to know me.

If anyone has lasted to the end of this leave me a note! I dont knwo anyone on this site and would love to make new friends!

All my love,

           Purple Eyeshadow