Once more
Words hold me down and can’t sit here and write my journal is full and my pens out of ink. I’m tried of recording my voice and my own husband is not used to deep conversations. Lord take me home. I am only here to love, when my love is done and when I stop loving take me home so I do no more damage. These words still ring in my ears "Why was I not good enough for you?" I’ve come to the point again where I’ll stop expressing. Recite 2 Cor 10:5 once more and move on with my life until once again God will blast you in my world once more only to say "______ its time to express and recored once more, once more."
My gown is on, my hair done up, my earring are in and my shoes are off, my train is long and I’ve come running up the stone staircases up to your gates. The guards see me from afar and open them before I arrive. I run towards you holding my dress in both hands. I cry out to you aloud it echoes in you kingdom walls. "Daddy daddy…why!" You turn and rush toward me and scoop me up in your arms. He says," I know its hard my darling but it will be worth it in the end."
Till that time comes please don’t let go of me.
ryn: some of that silence was unintentional. I’ve been out of town visiting my in-laws. I haven’t been too inspired recently but I think I may write some tonight. I’ve had this song I’m working on bouncing around in my head. Anyway, hopefully this silence won’t last too much longer. Take care, CCG
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ryn: I realized I forgot my manners. Thank you for your kind words. As to other places, sometimes bloopdiary but there isn’t much on there that isn’t on here. If I can remember the address, there’s some of my poetry as a teenager floating out there in cyberspace. Other than that, it’s all here or in my head. =)
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This entry moved me deeply. The opening line-“words hold me down”-man, do I know that feeling TOO well. The very fact that you are still here is proof that your love is not done yet. Time and space contraints prevent my full thoughts on the matter, but this was a very deep entry and really struck a chord in me. Until I can speak more on it, Peace,
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ryn: thank you. Glad to be back. And glad I could give you a bit of encouragement. Take care. Peace,
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