Tomorrow

 Will I be able to love you after I take it? Is this what you need more instead of me to see? God brought me to you to love you… nothing more. Your parents never loved you property and it tars me apart knowing I’m the first one to show you. Shocked by the culture you grew up in a fake reality was your existence. It breaks my heart when I look in your eyes; you have never known this before. I’m so chosen for you, to show what you never knew. But you have not yet to except and that’s fine. The time will come when you will see. I will show you love, I will show you Him. God forgive me for being frustrated when he doesn’t understand. None of that matters. He knows you and together God we will show him. If it takes years a lifetime, you will know what love really is from Him that is why I’m here… for you. God told me to be with you, I never question why when it comes to you. He clearly tells me every day, for you to understand His love is …what I made a commitment to do.

 You think you love me and in your capacity you do! That is good enough don’t force something that isn’t there. I don’t need it, I never have from another. God is more than enough and what you give me is more than I’ve ever needed.

 You support and protect, provide and I adore that the world knows your loyalty, that word they used to describe you makes me all the more prouder to be yours. The husband checklist you have done (I know you hate when I say) but you are the perfect husband there is nothing more I can ask of you. I will not ask of you something you cannot give. I am yours and I am here to stay.

 but I’m scared for tomorrow of what the medical system will tell me to take,  they want me to be like you and I pray that you will see that I can not work the long hours like you, I was made to love you.