I miss my brother

I have taken over this diary now. It has been a hellish week. Seeing my brother in the hospital bed hurt me so very much. Much like everyone else in my family we show no emotion, and stay strong.

I have always been very close to my brother even though I have never been able to tell him.

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It hurt very much at the funeral seeing all my family come together. Everyone acting like there wanted to keep in touch even though now this week is over they will continue on with their lives as if nothing ever happened. It is a sad thing that it takes a funeral to bring the family together.

"Certainly there is no hunting like the hunting of man and those who have hunted armed men long enough and liked it, never really care for anything else thereafter."
–Ernest Hemingway, "On the Blue Water," Esquire, April 1936

"Oderint Dum Metuant"
–Caligula

Is everything ok? Marco? You’re worrying me…of course I think of you….

Are you ok? Email me ASAP

What happened to your brother? What funeral???? I’m so lost right now. Are you ok???

…worried………………………………………………………………………… please..please be ok

im at starbucks in borders on my little lap top..just saying hi and im thinkin of you….

please dont talk like that. i love you.

sharpshooting..that sounds so cathartic. where do i sign up?

Yes. Lets do.

you should play wow with me, i started up again..i quit my guild lol

I wish I knew where you are. As to your previous note: I thought I’d been pretty good about answering your texts and I haven’t gotten an Email from you in ages. I’m sorry you feel I’m neglecting you. I never see you on MSN..maybe you’ve got me blocked, I don’t know. I guess I don’t get on that much though. I hope you’re doin ok wherever you are

But but but, I’m afraid of guns!

Yes, I do miss you, actually!

Are you alive