I’m the topic of discussion

When it comes to mom and sis. They think I’m sleep when they do. This morning I heard part of their convo and mom was commenting how she never gets to see much of me. She works two jobs, so that’s mainly why. By the time she gets off her second job, I’m in bed. I’m miserably sleepy by then. There are occasions when I can’t sleep, but lately 10pm has been my bedtime. The one they comment on often. They go to bed late, and wake early. I am sometimes woke, but still too sleepy, and tired to get up.  So they think I’m sleep and I hear them talking. It’s not always me, and I can’t always hear what they are saying. They just seem to bring me up in some topic. I love them, but sometimes I need space, quiet, and time to myself. I rarely get that living at home. They think I’m supposed to want to hang and talk all day. Mom thinks I’m being antisocial I guess. I can be, but I need alone time. I always have and that’s what my mom and sis don’t get.

I can’t tell you how many times a day my sis pops in the living room wanting to talk for a long ass time about a movie she’s watching on YouTube or her Sims games. Half the time I really don’t care, but I play along. It’s just when she rambles on that it starts to be annoying. She doesn’t want to come in the living room to watch tv, but says she’s lonely and that’s why she talks so much. She also wants you to spend hours watching her play Sims on that slow ass computer or watch YouTube. If you act like it bothers you then her feelings get hurt and she gets on this kick that you don’t love her or she’ll cry. Pure manipulation and I hate it. I love them and I will visit as often as I can, but I can’t live with them. My nerves are shot and I barely have time to regroup before someone wants to get clingy or talk my ear off. This is why I prefer to live alone. People annoy me. It doesn’t matter if it’s family or not.