pity party for 1 please

 i am failure. atleast on the professional front. i did not get this super awesome job. and im upset. i mean that job could have been a career could have been something for me. but it is not. so i am stuck in retail and bullshit jobs. seems that is all im good at. yeah im actually not taking this well. the mental thing in my head is just weighing me down about it today. then on top of that the bf is to chicken shit for me to meet his family and friends. so im upset about that. everything just kind of sucks today,