Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas Everyday

As Christmas eve is upon the world I have to say I am truly blessed in my life. I could never ask for anything more then how I am feeling at this very moment. This is one of the times in life when the spirit and the mind come into sync and all is feeling good. As I sit here and reflect on my life I have had my trials and tribulations. Life hasn’t always been easy for me. But one thing I have to say I never gave up. I accomplished more than I could ever have asked for. Raising three children on my own was not always the easiest task in the world. Worrying about how I was going to do it on my own, pushing myself to move forward when I didn’t know where the food on the table was going to come tomorrow. It always worked and for that I am truly one of the most blessed people who had the opportunity to experience just as I have.

I always told my children do not worry about tomorrow, life always give you what you need when you need it. All you have to do is have faith. Faith will get you were you need to go and will never let you down and that is exactly what faith has done for me.

I can remember nearly 27 years ago feeling as if life was a dark and lonely place. I felt so alone and didn’t know what I was going to do. I came as close as anyone could come to giving up and going home. An angel knocked on the bathroom door that day and brought me back into the reality of needing to continue on this journey I call life. No one has any idea how many times I have looked up to heavens over the years and thanked spirit for giving me that silent knock into the reality of continuing on this journey. Tonight again I give thanks to spirit for waking me up and giving me all of the opportunities I was given in this life time.

One thing I have realized in this lifetime is every disaster in life has turned into being some of the biggest blessing. How many nights has any of us sat in tears crying that our prayers were not being answered only to realize at a later date that they were. It just wasn’t the way we thought at the moment was best for us. But they are always answered in a way that is always truly best for us. There is always a higher power in play, one that we can not always see in the current moment.

My children are some of the best children that walk this earth. They are not perfect, although they are perfect in my eyes. I am honored to have this wonderful chance to be there mother here on earth. My heart will always smile when I think of them. I don’t think anything will ever change that. I would do anything for them. Until my last breath on earth I will do everything in my power to help them along their paths in life. I will always be there best friend even when they don’t see me as a friend at all.

Sometimes I get discourage about relationships in my life. But as I sit back and reflect in any of the relationships in my life, each one of them has taught me something about myself. As I sit and look at each and everyone of them I see how far I have come in life..I see just how much I have grown into becoming my own person. I have become much more secure in myself. I truly love who I am and what I am about. I no longer question what I am about and what other think of me. It doesn’t matter anymore. My childhood was not the best to enhance someone’s self esteem. I came out of childhood unable to make a decision and the decisions I did make I made based on what others thought. Not a good thing. If I didn’t go through all of the things I did in my lifetime then I wouldn’t be able to feel the way I feel at this moment. I wouldn’t be as secure in myself as I am right now.

J cutting down that tree years ago was the worse thing that could have happen. Financially he destroyed me. When I was sued I couldn’t think of anything that could have been worse at that moment. Who would have ever thought that this would have led to the job that I currently have. I have a wonderful job with a boss who has treated me as one of his own children. He has financially set me up for the future. He has been there for me and in return he now has a thriving company that is doing extremely well. I am glad that I was able to save his company from bankruptcy and he got to see the dream of having a successful company at his age. It is something he has always wanted. 

When we are young Christmas is about Santa and the surprise of what we received under the tree.  As we grow older and wiser we begin to realize it really is not about what we receive under the tree but about the blessings that we receive daily.  To me it is a time for being thankful for all of the blessings we have in our life….our children, friends, family and even coworkers.  Even in my alone moments there are always blessings present.  I no longer look to someone else for my happiness.  All of the blessings and happiness are within and around us if we only let our spirits see and feel it.  We have to remember everyday to have ourselves A Merry Little Christmas now.

Time to go make cookies for Santa with my grandson.  Truly blessed!! 🙂

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on, 
our troubles will be miles away.

Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years 
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself A merry little Christmas now.