Collision Once Again

I was riding to work the other day and this song came on the radio.    D came into my mind after all of these years…and I found myself wrapped around him once again.  Even after all of these years he is still the one person that will forever be deep within my heart and soul.  I know we will never get back together in this life time.  Too much time has past and we are two different people than we were many years ago.  We are complete opposite sides of the spectrum.  I decided to send him an email that day to let him know that he is still deep within my heart and soul.  As time goes by he will always be that one person I carry within me.  We have since talked and agreed to go out as just friends.  Even though we will never be a couple again, we will occasionally go out as friend and enjoy each others company.  I know from just talking to him on the phone that we are the opposites I knew we were and any chance of things being like they once were are completely gone.  Not sure what he has that after all of these years he stuck with me.  I guess you can say I miss the way it was years ago.  Maybe it was me being completely open years ago…I am not quite sure.  Maybe it is just me missing the oneness we once shared.  I grew in so many ways since then…….to me it seems like he is still in the same place he was years ago.  I feel like he never grew.  He is still making the same bad decisions he did nearly 20 years ago.  Why is it some people grow and some people are forever stuck and never work at becoming a better person?  Still looking forward to the day I meet that person who can take his place inside of me……..until then life continues to move forward and time falls close behind. 

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You’re barely waking
And I’m tangled up in you
Yeah

I’m open, you’re closed
Where I follow, you’ll go
I worry I won’t see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I’m quiet you know
You make a first impression
I’ve found I’m scared to know I’m always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don’t stop here
I lost my place
I’m close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

 

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