Meant For Something More

Ever feel like you were meant for something more? Something bigger? Like the life you’re leading is not the path that you were meant to be on and that life had bigger plans for you?

I feel as if I am meant for something larger than this world; as if I’m trapped in this body, waiting to break out into something great and worthy. Ever have that feeling? It leaves you restless, confused and afraid. Nothing you do seems to fill that void in your heart and you find yourself looking up at the massive sky, wondering where exactly did you stray from your extraordinary path? When did you ever become "ordinary"?

I want to do a great deal of things in this world. I want to skydive. I want to ride a hot air balloon. I want to hike Mount Everest. I want to snowboard. I want to see the world. I want to have a fairy tale romance and fall in love like in the movie, The Notebook. I want to leave my footprints on this planet. I want all of these things because I feel like I’m living each day as nothing more than a "normal" person and I’m afraid that once my time is up, I’ll disappear from this world and nothing more.

I’m not saying I want to be famous and known and that being a "normal" person is even a bad thing but I want there to be at least an impact in the world once I leave. No one should be forgotten. I don’t want to be forgotten but I feel as though that’s where I’m heading. I want my life to have meaning. I want to help people. I want to change lives. I want to matter…

I’m bigger than this girl sitting here desperately typing out every single thought that comes to her mind that’s holding her captive, overwhelming her until her hands tremble…her heart soars. I’m bigger than this life…right?