Gap year (revised)

Its been almost three weeks since my last entry partially because my brother bought me an iPod Touch for my brithday and it’ll let me browse OD and comment but it won’t let me add an entry for some reason.

Nothing has changed since the last entry but I’m actually ok with that. A few days ago I came home from work and sat down after dinner to watch some stuff online while Carl was studying, he asked what was I planning to do with my year but because I haven’t decided and I’m still dealing with not getting into the course I broke down and cried…a lot! It felt like an attack, it felt like he was saying are you gonna waste your whole year watching TV? He was right though I’m waiting for this year to start but I have to kick start it, no one else can do it! I have to wait another couple of weeks before I can plan anything though because I’ll find out next week if I’m getting promoted in work. We got a big contract which means a lot more work (which is good cos things have been slow). My manager wants me to be a supervisor but she doesn’t know if the position is being made available yet or not so I have to wait and see.

Carl was right tho, over the last few weeks I go to work, eat, watch TV and sleep. I think I’ll start planning another holiday, that’ll keep me occupied for a while. I’m gonna print out the forms to go volunteer at a children’s charity I was involved with in the past. My mam and aunty are training to do the women’s mini-marathon which is in three months I think I’ll do that with them cos that’ll get me through the next three months while Carl is in college. I really do have to start watching less TV but its hard when you’ve no motivation to do anything! If I didn’t have a job to go to I’d stay home all day every day in bed but since I’m up I should really make the most of it. Staying in bed reminds me of depression and I’m doing my best not to go there again.

Ok that was longer than usual, just wanted to get some thoughts down.

Bye for now

-Aoife