T.O.D

Got an e-mail from TOD telling me they were putting an old diary of mine back online so I could view it, talk about blast from the past! I had just gotten over my depression and was really liked a guy named Paul (who turned out to be an asshole but i still talk to every now n then) I was just back from a "pligrimage" to Germany where I got food poisoning and had to be flown home early!

Its strange looking back on things like that and thinking I didn’t even know Carl back then n now he’s my whole world! I realised how unhappy I was before met him! I couldn’t remember what I was like, what type of person I was before I met him n I realised thats because I didn’t want to remember! Like the other night we were talking n I told him about my depression, I had always thought of it as a big deal but he wasn’t even slightly phased by it, he just has this way of makin me feel normal (if thats possible!) Anyway reading that stuff n remembering the misery of it all just makes me appreciate him that much more.

– Aoife