The tables have turned.

Its weird…I’m really worried about my parents. When ur a kid u worry every time ur parents have a fight that they’ll split up but when ur older u realise thats just the way relationships are  but this time its different…

My dad lost his job over a year ago (through no fault of his own) and has been looking for work ever since and he is SERIOUSLY bored/depressed. He started smoking again after 15years which is bad enough but he already has diabetes, high blood pressure and high colestrol and his father died young (57) of a weird heart thing. My mam is in a bad way too, she badly needs a hysterectomy the poor woman is in constantly in pain she also has my dad to worry about (since he wont worry about him self) and she takes care of my 89 year old grandmother 3 days a week who needs 24hr care, all this on top of work and the fact that her hromones are going CRAZY with the tablets she’s on!

On top of all this, because my dad has no job money is tight, they’ve gotten through a recession before and the last time my brother and I were really small so we needed to be looked after but this time seems to be worse for some reason (probably because I’m aware of it) they have a holiday home down the country and an apartment in Portugal, if worse comes to worst they can sell those and live off the profits for a while but they worked REALLY hard to get them and it would crush me to see them have to sell them. It would probably crush them too. I just wish there was something I can do, I feel so helpless. I don’t ask them for money since i have a job but I don’t earn enough money to help out in anyway besides if I try to give them money they won’t take it, they’re too proud. I think I’ll have to steal they’re bank account details and lodge money into their account thats the only way I’ll know they’ll take it!

I hate this.

– Aoife.