An Introduction.

Hello, I’m a girl that just happened to end up with the name "Rachel." I’ve had an account on this website before, but for some reason I wanted to make a new account…so I did. Yeah. I think that makes sense.

So, I’m Rachel. I’m 14 years old, and I will be starting high school soon. Unlike most of my friends, I honestly am not nervous or excited for high school. I really don’t care. It’s just gonna be another four years of my life that passes by in a flash. Time really does pass by too fast for my taste. I am not the kind of girl that you would fall in love with at first sight. I, in my 14 year old glory, am about 5’3. Neither short nor tall. Average. I weigh around 125 lbs. Average. I have naturally straight brown hair. Semi- average. Blue eyes. Average. I am really self conscious. I’ve been described as skinny, fat, flat chested, largely chested, beautiful, ugly, pale, gorgeous, normal, and interesting looking. People don’t really know what to make of me.

I’m quiet sometimes. I really dislike small talk. I’ve been described as quiet, loud, stupid, smart, witty, funny, creative, boring, honest, mean, and nice. Like I said, people don’t really know what to make of me. I really just want someone to tell me that I’m not average…That I’m more than just another teenage girl, living the lives of everyone else as her own. I want someone to understand me… without me having to explain myself. I want to be somebody.

I’m more of the "artistic type". Music is my passion. When I listen to it, I get this feeling…of freedom, of breathlessness, of happiness. The scene of a crowd jumping up and down at a concert is inspiring to me. I play the guitar, the oboe, the saxophone, piano(kind of), bass(kind of), and drums(kind of). I really like singing and playing guitar. My favorite bands are Jack’s Mannequin, Something Corporate, The Fray, Mae, U2, The Beatles, The Rocket Summer, Matt Nathanson, Augustana, Tom Milsom, Dave Matthews Band, Coldplay, and so many others. Andrew McMahon is my inspiration. His music has helped me through so much. I had the fortune of meeting him last October during his acoustic show at the Swedish American Hall in San Francisco. I’m also into drawing, and photography.

My username isn’t exactly accurate. I used to be an optimist. A hard core one, at that. "Why not smile?", I’d say to my friends. Now, I’m more of an optimistic pessimist. I try to be happy. I try so hard. But being happy can be so hard sometimes, and it’s just so easy to just give up and be unhappy. I’ve felt pure happiness before. It sounds cheesy, but it’s true. I haven’t felt it in so long, though. I miss it.

Well, that was my inaccurate introduction. Maybe you’ll understand me better as you read on. Good bye, for now.

Smile,

Rachel.