05/14/2012

 I just finished shooting 3 videos for Microsoft around Compliance and Migration. It had been a while since I’ve been professionally filmed and I forgot how much went into the making of a video – they even dulled me up! 😉 Needless to say, I’m glad its over. I spent half the night worrying about it and half the day memorizing my lines. 

Speaking of Microsoft, I’ll be in Orlando next month for a week, covering the Microsoft TechEd event. I decided to stay the weekend and booked 2  3-day tickets to Universal Studios and Island Adventure. Bring it on! I’ve been wanting to do this for yeeeears! Yes, I’m always a kid at heart. 

So…someone needs to teach me how to upload photos here. I finally finished painting the sitting room – no more sea foam green! That said, I had to repaint the fireplace over again… Aubergine purple did not work out in the end….so I went with black, as it was more characteristic of folk victorian houses of the day. Next project will be to remove the carpet from the spiral staircase and replace it with a runner that will hopefully match my rug….if possible. I had furniture that was due to arrive this past weekend but they are behind so I do not know when my set will arrive now. But hey, their error resulted in me receiving an additional gift card, so no complaints! 

Tomorrow I drop the bmw off at the shop….REALLY hoping there are no problems with it. I always get nervous when my car has to be serviced and to date I have avoided an official BMW shop but I think my AC is wonky and only a registered dealer can touch it. Did I mention I got a crack in the windshield a few months ago? I think my old neighbor accidentally chipped it when he was cleaning off his cement maker…or whatever you call those things. The crack is slowly spreading and I’m trying to put off repair as long as possible. My windshield has a rain sensor mechanism and it will no doubt make the cost in repairing it that much steeper. 

Moving on to other sad things… I need a landscaper. I suck…. big time… I can’t distinguish a weed from a plant. I feel really embarrassed in admitting that. I just need someone…anyone…to teach me and I promise I’ll be better! I’m travelling to Chicago at the end of the month, then to CA a day and a half later…back to Columbus…then down to Florida…all for work. I need to clone myself, me thinks. 

And as far as my love life goes, it’s all work in progress. I found myself a bit irritable and sad Friday night… I am trying to reconcile what I feel in my heart and actual realities. They are vastly different. I realize that I have a tendency to live in the past, to embrace remembrances and even romanticize things in my head. I can’t allow myself to be pulled into fantasies that are impossible…otherwise I will miss what is right in front of me. I don’t want to end up alone. I’m tired of constantly trying to obtain the unobtainable. Is it wrong to lower my expectation? Is is okay to compromise, knowing I will never have what I had with you? You’re living proof that it’s possible to be happy and in love with someone else. Why can’t I do the same. I must be able to….I must…I have to….but I won’t ever know unless I make the effort.