08/10/2010

He befriended me!! YEAH!!!  Still giddy….I wrote him a quick note again.  Just to let him know what’s gone on the last few years.  You know since I was married and so forth and well now I’m whatever……  its strange I hate filling out what my status is….. widowed, single, with partner.  If I say I’m with someone do I give up the right to say I’m widowed???  When does being a widow end and being single begin if I wasn’t with someone.   In certain forms since I’m not married I’m single as with a partner/ BF or significant other is not an option.  

So Monday dropped off oldest at camp. Haven’t heard from him. Figure all is well.  I think Dennis misses him.  He told me,"strange, he hasn’t called"  He’s at camp., they don’t call unless they really have too.  I’m thinking he’s loving it.  Even Dennis thought that it would be cool to be there.  " I could have done this as a kid"     Neither of us went to camp and here I’m sending mine off for a week.  I was too shy. I would never agree to go.  My brother went to camp and they sent me to my cousins house for a week and then she would come here. That’s as close as I ever got.   

So what have I been doing instead….. Dennis had counseling  which he hates but I make him go.  He needs to get some issues worked out and I don’t know if it will help. We had it out yesterday. I screamed at him for a few hours I guess. I was mad about stuff.  He’s been particulary miserable the last week and I wanted to get it off my chest. But he was being even an ass about letting me vent which was pissing me off more and more.

I had an interview today and PT for my neck.  Interview went well I think. I think I did fairly well answering there questions. The one I hated was sell yourself.   Why should I give you this job.  I hate talking about myself. Its not me but I did it.  I think the best answer I gave he asked what I didn’t like about Respiratory and I said getting gooed on and laughed, so did he.  Its one of those things that comes with the territory like changing a baby’s diaper~sometimes its messy. I didn’t say treatments or what I really hate and that’s chest PT.

My neck has been bothering me so I’ve gone about 3 weeks now….I have mixed feelings about it as they have students and let them do whatever and its not always helpful.  I hate to say no to students but if your not training them right and its not helping….GRRR.

Tomorrow nothing is planned…..I should do something….the rest is busy.  Dennis has court on Thursday and Friday I have to pick him up.