08/06/2010
There’s a few things I’ve given into…..
1) there’s always going to be some drama and event that sticking a thorn in your side no matter what you do.
2) freaking out will get you no where
So I had to look back to when I started this diary and the fact that Jonathan is now the same age as Andrew was when I started this. I read a couple entries wishing I wrote more about Andrew than the horrors of my life from hell then. But then that was what was keeping me up at night. Its nice not having the stress of going to the hospital all the time. Worrying about money and everything else including working. Its not to say I don’t have stressors now but screw them…..after that…Who cares. I really wanted to see how developmentally wise they are different. I know some ways as I know what Andrew would and wouldn’t do and why I over looked them. i know Andrew wouldn’t build with blocks. I know I worked with him with this and he would knock them over immediately and would never build with them. I had to force him to do it and he would get mad. Another on was sorting shapes and putting them threw the holes. NOPE wouldn’t do that too. I just figured not his thing. As long as he learned the shapes who cares if he stuck them through the right hole. I watch Jonathan…..he builds with blocks and loves sorting shapes. He explores to see if it only fits in one hole and keeps doing it over and over when it does. He understands a lot . The one thing I wrote is Andrew was making moo sounds for a cow by now… Jonathan is not into that. He did do a few sounds but not anymore. Right now he’s all about the Alphabet. One of the videos he likes to watch goes Apple, apple a, a,a and he likes singing it. The video does the phonic sounds of the letters. He loves it.. good. The other I wrote that Andrew got his pj’s off by himself and I asked him who did that and he pointed to himself. Right now Jonathan is lucky if he’s going to bed in a shirt as its been so hot I haven’t bothered. Shirt off no…other clothes I have seen him take off. The one hot day he didn’t want to wear anything I fought to get an outfit on and he pulled it off looked at me and laughed…Like he won. He can pull up his pants (except for getting the pants around his little tushy. ) He does have quite a few words in his vocabulary and a few 2 word ones….All done and Give me… other words are yum-yum or yummy. Mommy Daddy, baby, apple, Hi, bye, hello, ball, ba-ba for bottle (means he’s thirsty ) NO. uh- oh, going, do- doing , three (sound like tree). I ‘m trying to think of more but those are the favorites I’ve heard more and some he’s stopped saying for now like book, balloon, bubbles, banana and animals sounds. But I’ve heard other words like blue (boo) yellow, brown, fries and get. I’m sure there’s others, he babbles none stop all day.
So stressors you really want to hear them???
My neck is bothering me and I’m going to PT to help it. Long time coming. Probably holding Jonathan all day is not helping an old neck problem I’ve ignored completely for over a decade.
I’m being sued by a credit card company. Missed a few payments they sold debt to 3rd party Talked to them. Did make payments not to 3rd party they say I haven’t …there you go…best part right now…Now they really can’t collect as my income is off limits that being from Social Security and I’m not making any more knowing this HA. Guess they should have left well enough alone. Problem was finding a form to answer their summons.
Of course with that being said. I got an email to set up an interview with a person from a hospital to work per diem for them. Perfect for me right now as I really don’t want to go back to full time suddenly. Most of what I would get would be the night shift and that would be bad with a small child
Then there’s still the long drawn out matter of Dennis and court which will be old and grey before they make a decision as they know they are wrong and are milking this and doing scare tactics. Why else would this go on and on.
Still working on getting him on Social Security. I know it seems silly but really he is how he is and there is no changing him. I wish he would act normal in front of others. Okay….that doesn’t sound good. He is totally outgoing and talkative to people he had met for the first time and will only get to know for like 10 minutes. He’s great at pulling information out of people and learning stuff. Its after that. if you have to get to know some one for longer than that 10 minutes. He act like an idiot . He says stupid stuff that makes no sense. It’s not like he’s fumbling around with what to say. Its just stupid stuff flies out of his mouth and I have to explain. Its almost like being around Andrew when he does than to fill in for the missing thought process going on. That, and he likes to deal more with intellectuals not everyday boring conversation. I guess it comes down to he doesn’t do small talk well or at all. So how’s he around me and the kids?? He has his moments and if he’s not willing to it , whatever. I don’t force him. The kids….he’s fine, I swear he didn’t quite grow up but then what man has?? He relates to them great. I have a picture posted on my blog and should post it here. He was on Jonathan’s little 3 wheeler this morning and I took his picture. Too Funny